Life Dilemmas

make me a woman

"are you sure ? "im scared" ... "ive never done this before" i look into his eyes he ready for me like he being doing this for years, we both havent had this experience before but im in love and i want to spend my longest days with him, so im doing the right thing right ? ive been with quentin 'Q' for short for 2 years ive never thought we will make it this far or even be together q is my twin brother karl bestfriend and once upon my enemy . ive never had someone love me and care for me like he does , even though he is younger then me he knew how to make my heart warm .
" relax baby " he looked at me with them big eyes as he bent me over on my brother workout machine trying to force his hard cock inside my closed pussy " it hurts" i cried , we laughed . Q started looking out to see if anyone was coming, my house was full you would think we was having a party . nope thats how my house was the kick it spot until my mama gets up and start yelling kicking everyone out
"is someone coming ?". looking scared, "no but you about too ".

my pussy was doing something weird felt like a heart beat. we kissed, he tried putting 2 fingers inside my pussy it rejected q laid me down held my arms down and started kissing me from my lips to my belly button at this moment im not worried if someone walk in im feeling this Q started tongue kissing my pussy lips licking my pearl and fucking my whole with his tongue i couldnt control myself, i was ready to explode my body was jerking i couldnt control it.
i can feel myself about to cum all over his soft tongue and i was nasty i didnt care, i held his head down to make sure all my juices enter his mouth he enjoyed it and i did too "thank you " i said holding his head down waiting for whats next.
Q had his dick near my whole, "relax baby " he shoved his self inside i screamed didnt care if i was heard.
he slow stroked me, by his facial expressions and moans i can tell he enjoying what im giving him.

5 mins later "im about to cum baby ! " he yells Q stroke me two pumps later, he cums on top of my pussy.

Laying there im thinking this is the hype about sex ? this what i was going crazy for? this what niggas go crazy over .. maybe i was scared and i couldnt concentrate on how it felt .
"did my cherry pop?" i asked whipping myself , "no didnt see any blood maybe next time. "
next time i dont want to do that again .

next morning i got up and got ready for school i hated highschool, I tried to hold my secret to myself until i seen my bestfriend denise, we were just alike loud crazy and didnt give no fucks, " hey girly!" denise came over to me with a smile because she knew what i was going to do but didnt no if i did it our not. "sooooo did you?"
" what?" she smacked my arm
" bitch stop acting dumb" she said looking at me with that mama stare. crazy because my mama didnt disipline me or treat me like i was her child, but when someone else does this stare i get it.
i sighed "yes " putting my head down with a smirk on my face
" OHMY FUCKING GOD!-" "shiiiish" grabbing her mouth.

" girl be quiet dont say nothing to nobody this school talks alot its bad enough everyone talks about how much younger he is then me-" cuts me off
"girl shut up im your bestfriend since we were in second grade remeber who you talking too i aint gon do you like that iight ", of course she wouldnt ,but can i tell her how it really was though ?.
Going home was stressful theres always something going on niggas running in and out. i wouldn't call this a place to raise kids.
"carlee!" I hopped up when i heard my mama voice calling me from outside my door.
my room was in the back across from my twin room, my room was a den i didnt have any closet burly a dresser and it was full of stuff i was basically in the back yard. "yea ? " i said whipping my eyes looking at my phone seeing what time it was
[2:05 a.m ]
"Come eat " my mama yelled like she was upset or irritated.

i no your like why the hell she feeding you so late well yea that was my question for years and maybe an answer to why i have thick bones . My mama wasnt like some of my friends mom i didnt get the sweet hugs and kisses or the i love you's and cuddles . our relationship was like bloods and crips .I was a dummy , i wish i didnt have you , i don't like girls , i hate you ! I got cursed out almost every day for little to no reason.

i was called a bitch by mama so much i embraced the title. i was a horrible child talked back no respect for adults or anyone for that matter , my mama didnt give me the i love you i can't even recall if she ever said that till this day . i couldn't call my mama "mama " she wouldnt respond she only responds to her name "lane" some call it disrespectful but i say that's my mama .
"Good night brother " slapping karl on his back "night" . {6:45a.m} i hear knocking at my window of course it's no one elese but Q ready to walk with me to school "lets get a quickie" what the fuck but i was kind of horny so why not "come here " fucking him with my eyes, he came closer with excitement i shoved his penis in my mouth and went to work "yes!" He moaned.