Never There ~ A Jelsa Story~

Thirty Three; Losing Hope

I stare at my phone in shock. My sister could be dead already. What can I do? I look through my contacts and fall upon Kristoff's number. I dial it, and as I wait, I can feel the tears falling on my burning cheeks. 

"Elsa? What is it? I'm at my German work!"

"Yes, I know, it is important! It's about Anna! She just threatened..."

"What? Threatened what? Elsa, tell me!"

It is hard to speak through my tears, but I have to keep trying. For Anna. "She's threatening her life, quickly, please Kristoff! She's not answering me."

"What? I need to phone her, this is important! I'll let you know!" He cut off the phone and I was left in the darkness, wondering if this was the last time I would see her.

I've had several disappointments which have turned into positives: Jack was "cheating" on me, but then I found Michael; Jack nearly died, but now he is OK; and finally, Jack lost his sister, but I found her again. 3 times in a row, maybe, but not 4. Suddenly the phone rings again.

"Elsa, she didn't answer my call," Kristoff says, and I can tell that he's crying, even though I've never heard him like this before. I don't want him to be sad, but I can't tell him that everything's OK. It's not. "I've lost her, haven't I? I'm getting a taxi to the flat now."

"Please hurry, Kristoff!" I exclaim, and he says that he will. The phone cuts off and again, I wait for something, anything, to happen. After half an hour, I'm so scared. Why had I done it? Was Anna right? Maybe Michael was ruining me...

"Ellie, I'm home!" Michael says, but I don't say a word. I'm so confused. Everything I do ends up in tears. It is horrible. "Ellie?" he asks again, and then enters the room. He sees me lying against the cushions on the sofa, crying, and he sighs. "What is it, eh, Ellie?"

"It's... well... it's my sister..."

"Don't be silly, I know that it's your hormones. You're getting overemotional because you've got a baby!"

I look at him in alarm. How can he know? "What? Who told you?"

"Ellie, don't be ridiculous. I guessed it last week when you said that you weren't well. You've been moody, Ellie. I've dealt with it twice, I should know the signs."

"OK, sure, I am pregnant, but that's not why I'm like this! My sister... I think my sister's dead."

"You think? Ellie, see, this is what I mean! You're overthinking things." I stare at my boyfriend in shock. I can't help thinking about Jack and how when I said that my parents were dead, he had cuddled me. Can Michael not do that?

"Do you not have any sympathy in you?" I shout at him, "I'm saying that my sister is dead, and you just put it down to me being pregnant? What kind of a boyfriend are you?"

Michael smiles at me. "Ellie, it's OK. I'm not angry at you for having a child! You obviously get a lot more emotional than Kiki did, but that's fine with me. Just don't get too moody on me, alright?"

"I can't believe you! I need to go," I say, and I pick my phone up and leave the room. I thought Michael was amazing, but he's acting pretty horrible at the moment. Kristoff still hasn't replied. It's getting too much. Who can I talk to? I can't talk to Michael, he's made that clear, and Lily and Eugene are off somewhere. Anna and Kristoff are the ones I am worried about, but they are in Germany... I can't talk to Jack either... that would look like I'm being disloyal to Michael... What about my ex-best friend? She is 18 though. Belle will still be at school, probably... I look at my phone. It is 3pm. By the time I get to the school, she'll be out. I need to collect Amber, Maya, Jade, Tom and Tyler from their school anyway... 

I make up my mind to go to my old school and talk to Belle. I'm not sure whether it is because I just want to say hello to my friend, or whether it is because I want to go "back into my past", but I need to do it. 

I reapply my foundation to "remove the tears" and set off. I just hope it is a good decision.