Rejected

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Hey guys, I know it's been a really long time, I'm sorry I haven't been on Wattpad very much. I've been very busy with college and with COVID and everything it's just been so fucking hard' but I failed out so guess who is back, me lol, it's me. I keep trying to write, but I can't seem to make anything I like. But y all deserve something for being so patient and nice in the comments. As always, criticism, comments and grammar tips are appreciated but thank you for staying patient. Love y'all - Dani

        When I woke the burning feeling remained, but not as harsh as before, what was left was simply a dull ache in my chest. Almost like a longing, this most accurate way I can describe it is a bad cigarette craving. But I knew what the bad habit was, or more like whom.

            " fucking asshole'' I whispered to myself while stretching out my sore muscles. I let out a long sigh before sitting up in the bed. I reached to my left grabbing the phone alpha gave me off my pillow, looking at the time, l noted that it was late in the afternoon. I couldn't tell because of the dark muggy rain pelting itself against the large window. I just took is a deep breathe and sighed, letting the rain predetermine my already lethargic mood. I set myself up against the headboard, giving myself a second a large haze still surrounded my brain, and vision, and movements. Just everything honestly.

I knew I had been sitting there for a while when the door to my room opened softly, a certain annoying vampire pooped his head in with a cautious look in his eyes. "Cameron" I whispered softly. Starring at him with a dead-blank stare. I felt so tired still, but I knew my body wouldn't let me sleep.

He sat down at the edge of my bed, "hey.." he whispered back breathlessly. "How are you feeling?" He asked with that still very cautious look in his eyes, almost as if he were talking to a deer. It pissed me off slightly, knowing he felt like he had to approach me in such a way. Knowing he felt like I was a glass doll that was ready to shatter at the slightest sound.

"Fine." I said back rather bluntly. "I can't think correctly" I added for a reason unbeknownst to me, "and I still can't feel my wolf" I said still starring at him with murderous eyes. I wasn't trying to, I promise but I couldn't find it in me to be my usual timid self. I didn't care enough to.

"Are you hungry? I can bring you some food. The pack doctor said that you should stay in bed until the rest of the sedative wears off. You woke up earlier when I came in to check on you but you weren't very responsive and you couldn't sit up." He scooted a little closer till my knees were touching his arm. I had them pulled close to me, pressing tightly against my chest. I hadn't realize I had curled into such a defensive position.

    " I'm alright "I whispered softly, "I'm not very hungry." which was true, my stomach felt like it'd win medals at an Olympics.

He continued to stare at me, but I couldn't find it in me to break his gaze. He was so close to me. But I wasn't uncomfortable, I was just tired. I felt like I was still asleep, still hazy, like nothing was real. Without realizing it I was leaning into Kai. I let myself fall into him albeit completely unintentional and let's be honest here I was probably on enough tranquilizers to kill a horse. Kai caught me before I fell, pulling me into his lap. My head rested softly on his cold shoulder and I just let myself breathe. Deep, calming breathes. The dark haze was familiar, it was kind to me, keeping me numb.

" can we just stay here?" I asked softly, in almost a pleading tone. He only grunted a noise of approval before laying back against the bed, pulling me down with him. My face was pressed into his neck, taking long deep breathes of his cologne.

"what are you thinking?" He asked softly, as if trying not to scare a spooked animal.

I scoffed slightly at his words, "I'm not..." I said letting myself trail off into once more a comfortable silence. "Can I ask you something?" I said for the first time with no fear of repercussions from speaking out of turn.

"anything" was Kai's quick response

"why are you being so nice to me?"

A pregnant silence followed my words before he took in a long breathe, my body rising against his chest as he did so. "You're a porcelain doll kid, and someone dropped you" was his numb response that followed. "You're not broken, but innocence shouldn't be tainted with unkindness and when it does, the darkness is obligated to repay said unkindness"