It'll Never Be The Same

Kidnapped

Reid's POV

I walk into the BAU and start towards the coffee. It's my normal routine.

"Hey Spence." I hear JJ call from behind me.

"Hey" I manage to give a small smile and wave.

"It's really great to have you back" she gives me a warm smile and hugs me.

"It's great to be back" I say while pulling away from the hug.

It's been about a few weeks since everything happened.

**Flashback** (the rest of this chapter will be in a flashback based on the Tobias Hankle episode of Criminal Minds.)

"Reid, JJ, I want you both to go out there and talk to Mr. Hankle. See if he remembers anything" Hotch barked at us.

"Alright" JJ responded.

**Sitting in the car**

We sat there in silence. I feel like most of this team doesn't want me here. They always get upset with me when I give them intensive details on different things. Gideon has told me I need to work on that if i want people to be my friends. Being the youngest member on the team is hard, but being the youngest and the most intelligent on the team is worse. Maybe that's why my team hates me being around.

**Skip car ride**

"Tobias Hankle?" JJ asks.

"Yes. Who's asking?" Tobias questions back.

"I'm Jennifer Jareau, this is Dr. Spencer Reid, we're with the FBI," JJ and I pull out our badges, "Can we come in and ask you a few questions?" JJ finished.

"Sorry my father is asleep and he doesn't want anyone in the house. We can talk out here." Tobias studders.

"Of course. It says here you made a 9-1-1 call a few months back. I know it may be hard, but do you remember anything about that call?" Asks JJ.

"I'm sorry I didn't make that call," Tobias says, "Now I need to get going, my father needs me."

"Of course, have a good night." JJ ended the conversation.

"Why would someone deny making a call they made?" I asked JJ while walking back to the SUV.

"I don't know" she replied.

I decide on looking around the outside of the house, hoping to find something that will help us solve this case. I don't want to go back with nothing. While walking around the house, I come to a window. At first glance it just looks as though Todias has a complex computer system. But with closer look you could see that Tobias has video of all his victims and videos of potential victims.

"JJ, it's Tobias. Tobias is the unsub." I yelled while looking back at her. As I turn around I see Tobias and make eye contact with him, he takes off running.

Me and JJ follow him to the barn behind his house.

"JJ, you stay here, I'll go around back. The team knows we're here, they'll come to find us." I whisper to JJ.

The next thing I know I'm face to face with Tobias. Before I could do anything I'm hit and everything slowly fades away.

..

**Still in Flashback**

I wake up cuffed to a wooden chair with a terrible smell lingering in my nose. I look at the door as it opens to see Tobias walk in.

"Where are we?" I asked

"I come here when I want to be alone." He responded not answering my question. He comes up to me pulling off his belt and wrapping it around my arm.

"No. No. Please no." I begged.

"It's fine. It'll help." Tobias continued as he gives me some kind of drug. Next thing I know everything goes black.

As I come to, I look around to see Tobias.

"Tobias?" I questioned.

"Do I look like Tobias." He responded while sitting in fount of me. He starts to ramble on about God and repenting. All I could do was beg him and try to convince him I haven't sinned and I have nothing to repent for. Before I knew it he was pulling off my shoe and beating my foot with a wood board.

After what felt like forever, he left me alone. Minutes later Tobias returns with more of the drugs he gave me before. I still beg him not to but he doesn't listen to me.

**Time Skip 2 days**

I've been here for about 2 days. Tobias has continued to give me the drug, and after the 4th time I gave up on begging him not to. I actually started to like it. It took my mind off of everything that was happening. It's a release.

I can't help but to feel that the team isn't really looking for me. It's been 2 days and nothing. Sometimes I just wish I would have died when Tobias tried the other day. I let my mind wonder with thoughts of my past.

**Time skip: nighttime**

"I'm sorry mom, I'm so sorry." I say. I guess I was in a dream.

"What was that?" One of Tobias alters, Raphael, yells. "Are you confessing boy?"

I wake up looking at him. I'm done. I can't do this anymore.

"I confess, I confess" I cry out. He continues on his rant about God and repenting. He then uncuffed me and dragged me outside with a shovel in hand and his gun to my head.

"Start digging boy!!" He yells.

I fall to the ground and start to dig. I think about the team. JJ, the one who always cared for me, but less of a friend and more of a mother. Gideon, my father figure, a bit crazy and demanding. Emily, she cared about me, but we don't know each other well. Penelope, she's great, she loves me so much, but she loves everyone. Derek, maybe he cares, but he's always annoyed with me. Last, Hotch, he makes me feel like I'll never be part of the team.

"Faster boy!" Raphael yells, pulling me from my thoughts.

I see flashlights in the background and start to think its my team.

"I can't, I'm too weak" I cry out. He takes the shovel from me and begins digging. Before I knew it I had his gun and he has his knife.

"Good luck boy, that only has one bullet" he laughs. I ignored him and pulled the trigger. It hit him in the middle of his chest.

I hear yelling from my team and before I know it they're here.

"It's Spencer, don't shot." I yell standing there bleeding, broken, and bruised. JJ ran up to me and hugged me first, then one by one they hugged me. Before we left I looked down at Tobias.

"Wait, can I have a minute alone with him?" I asked looking at Hotch.

He nodded and the all walked away. I kneel down next to him and put my hand in his pocket. Finally I find what I was looking for. I pull out 2 vials of the drugs he gave me. They read "Dilaudid." I frown slightly and put them in my pocket. Derek came back and helped me to the ambulance. Then off to the hospital I go.