It'll Never Be The Same

Tell me you love me...please

Reid POV

I sit in the conference room working on the case, alone. Hotch told me because of unforeseen events, Morgan will be with me and Garcia. I'm not looking forward to it. I think Morgan is still mad at me for turning him down. I was just protecting him and me. I do have feeling for him but I'm unstable. I don't want to bring him down with me. It's hard but it's for the best. I was pulled from my thoughts as Garcia walked in with Morgan.

"Hey pretty boy" Garcia smiled and hugged me.

"Hey Garcia." I smiled back. I ignored Morgan. Its just to hard for me to face him right now. I feel so bad for hurting him.

"Imma go get some coffee" Morgan blurted out. Garcia nodded her head as he left.

"What happened to him?" I questioned gesturing to his wrist.

"Why don't you ask him?" Garcia answered my question with another.

"I don't want to, please just tell me." I begged with pleading eyes.

"Fine, he punched a window and broke his wrist. He's gonna be in it for 4 to 8 weeks." She explained.

"Oh." Is all I could manage to say. We started to work on the case.

Whenever I would ask Morgan a question he would ignore me and tell Garcia the answer. I finally had enough and stopped talking all together. If he doesn't want to listen to me then no one needs to hear me. I'm done with Morgan's bullshit.

Garcia walked out of the room to go talk to Hotch about something while Morgan was in the bathroom. She came back and asked me to follow her into her office. I sit down on a chair in there waiting for further instruction. She explained she was gonna get some coffee and she'll be right back. I nodded my head and began playing with the funky pens on her desk. My back was turned to the door, so when I heard the door open I turned around to see who it was. Morgan. Before he could turn around and leave, the door is closed and locked.

"Garcia!!" Morgan yelled banging on the door.

"I'm sorry, I had too. Me and Hotch think it'll be for the best. So y'all are not allowed to leave this room until you talk." She explained and began walking away. "Oh and please, if you love me, don't break anything." She then walked away.

"Fuck." I heard Morgan say under his breath.

"Fuck? Really morgan? Really? Why? Why fuck? Why don't you want to talk to me? What the fuck did I do?" I yell out in pure anger.

"You hurt me Spencer. You made me feel like a fool."

"Oh so because your but hurt you get to be an ass to everyone. You get to be a dick to me. You get to make me feel like a pile of shit because while I was in the hospital for trying to kill myself, I told you I didn't like you. So because your feelings were hurt you, somehow you get the right to make me hate myself and hurt the people around you. What the Fuck Derek."

"Fuck off Reid. You're selfish. You're an ass. You didn't think about anyone but you. You think your the only one who was hurt. You think your the only one who felt lost--" Derek yelled before I cut him off.

"FUCK YOU DEREK!! FUCK YOU!!" I pull up my sleeves to reveal my scars. "YOU'RE HURTING. YOU'RE LOST. GUESS WHAT DEREK I WAS SO HURT I TOOK A BLADE TO MY WRIST. I WAS SO LOST I INJECTED MYSELF WITH DRUGS TO TRY TO FIND MYSELF. YOU THINK I'M SELFISH? WANNA KNOW WHO IS? YOU ARE. YOU EXPECTED ME TO GO TO YOU AFTER WHAT YOU DID. YOU'RE MAD AT ME BECAUSE I'M TRYING TO HELP MYSELF INSTEAD OF FUCK WITH YOU. FUCK YOU ASSHOLE FU--" I screamed at him, but was cut off by him kissing me. I kissed back for a second then pulled away from him confused. I shook my head at him and walked over to the door.

"Garcia let me out of this room right now."

"Did you guys talk?" She asked.

"Garcia let me out."

"Reid, answer the question. Did you guys or did you guys not talk it out?" She asked again. I was done and couldn't deal with this shit anymore.

"Garcia, if you don't let me out of this room right now there is a 99% chance I am going to hurt him. And I don't think you, or Morgan want that. So, this is the last time I ask. Please, will you let me out of this room." I chocked out, trying not to cry. Garcia opened the door and saw me crying.

"Reid?" Garcia questioned.

"I'm not doing this right now," I said to her. I turned to Morgan, "I don't want to hear shit from you. You had no right to do that. You had no right to say that. I will finish this case with you, but when everyone comes back, I will no longer be here. I will no longer work with you. After everything that happened I can't stand being around you. I can barely even stand looking at you. I'm sorry Garcia. I know you just wanted us to talk it out. I know you just wanted us to be friends again, but i can't be around him anymore. If things don't change soon, I am going to move back to Vegas to be with my mom. I love you Garcia. And fuck you Morgan." I rambled out. I started to walk away and see Garcia crying. I felt terrible but I can't express how much Morgan hurt me. I gently hug Garcia and slowly walk away from them. As I do so, I can hear Garcia sob out and yell at Morgan for what he did. I make my way to the conference room and began working again.