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Reid's POV

I wake up in a hospital room with my wrists bandaged and an IV in my arm.

"Agent Reid, its great to see you awake." The doctor beside me says writing somethings down.

"When can I leave?" I ask.

"Agent, by law we have to keep you for 72 hours on suicide watch. " The doc explained.

Before I could say anything there was a knock on the door. Derek, Hotch, JJ, and Garcia all walk in.

"I'm glad your okay." Hotch said. I just nodded in response.

JJ and Garcia take turns giving me hugs and telling me how much they love me. Garcia started crying and begging me not to leave her. It made me feel like an ass for doing that to her.

"Hey..." Derek trails off.

I didn't say anything to anyone. I couldn't. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what I wanted to say. I could feel everyone's eyes on me. I felt like they were judging me. I began to have a panic attack and you could hear my heart monitor go off. Before I knew it the doctor was in there asking everyone to leave.

As they all leave I see another doctor walk in.

"Hi, I'm doctor Martian from psych." He reached his hand out.

"I don't shake hands." I explained.

"Understood, can we talk?"

I didn't have a choice. We talked for about an hour and then he left.

After a few minutes I heard a knock at the door. Derek, JJ, and Garcia all came in.

"Hey baby--pretty boy" Derek stuttered out. JJ and Garcia looked at him confused. I choose to ignore it and gave a smile and a wave in response.

"How are you feeling Spence?" JJ questioned. I just smile.

"Will you two give us a minute alone?" Garcia asked Derek and JJ. They both nodded and walked out.

"I can tell you don't wanna talk, so listen?" She started and nodded my head and she continued. "I love you Spence. You are like my best friend, my brother. You are the best person I know and you are the smartest. I love you so much Reid, please don't ever leave me." She cries out. I pulled her into a hug and whispered in her ear

"I promise."

She walks over to the door to open it but she stops before opening it. I see a small smile creep on her face.

She slowly open the door and I hear Derek say "yes okay. I fucking like Reid, but he doesn't like me. He only sees me as a brother okay. Stop asking." Derek looks over to see the door open.

"GOD DAMN IT GARCIA" he screams at her. I could see a tears forming in her eyes.

"WHAT THE FUCK DEREK! DON'T YOU FUCKING YELL AT HER!" I yelled. "I don't like you like that Derek," I said.

Derek walk over to me and put his hand on mine. I pull away from him "don't fucking touch me Derek" I growl at him.

"Pretty boy pl--" Derek began

"Derek, no. Get away from me... " I yell.

I look at Garcia and JJ in a way to ask them to make him leave. Just as they were the doctor walked in.

They team left and i looked at the doc. "I don't want anymore visitors. No one. Please." The doctor just nodded in agreement and went on his way.

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