✓ | for you, louis hynes.

( xviii.) i could say the same

FOR YOU ;
( xviii.) i could say the same 
( real life )

Weeks upon weeks had moved at the slowest pace in the minds of the asoue cast and crw, or well at least to a very sad and antsy river Montgomery. The young girl had continued filming fror the show, dreading day after day with realizing all of her friends had been out of town, leaving her to film alone.

Due to her solo character plot line, she only was able to film with the older actors and actresses, which was still great to the young girl, she still wished she could film with her friends.

Not only was she sad to not see her frineds, she was sad to see her ex boyfriend Tommy Lavas already had a new girlfriend, who he had been polstering all over social media, any platform thinkable. This would tend to anger young girls, but it instead made river upset. The young lavas boy had never posted about river like he did with this new girl, it made river feel less, or like a minor bump in tommys life. This action made a huge impact on rivers mood for the few weeks.

"You okay?"

Rivers head shot up from her phone, tucking a small piece of hair behind her ear, "Yeah." She lied, turning her phone off, "I'm alright."

Rowan eyed her sister, "were you on tommy's instagram again?" she asked, her hands reaching over to his sisters. river slightly nodded her head, her hands now in her sisters, "ignore them." she stated simply, " it's not gonna help
you. "

lacing her digits with rowan's, the girl placed her phone down,
" if you say so."

" i know so." the small girl tried to reassure her older sister, she looked into her teary blue eyes, "come on, lets get out of here." rowan spoke as she stood up from the café table her and her sister had been placed at.

River nodded as she followed behind her sibling, grabbing her drink off the table. hand in hand the two girls walked along the floor of the café, walking out the door and into the chilly streets of Toronto. river felt as a tear rushed down her cheek, she could feel herself slowly start to breakdown.

"RIVER RIVER!"

river could hear the shout of old men calling after her, she had tota;;y forgotten who she was for  a second, after coming back into the acting industry, she was now being followed by paparazzi. She could feel the creeping of people following her as she walked along the sidewalk, feeling as her sister pulled her hand to walk faster.

"RIVER WAIT."

She continued along her path, knowing if she turned back she would bombarded with questions by the huge group of men. She wanted to just get home and be able to cry into pillow.

"WHAT IS YOUR TAKE ON THE BREAKUP?" one reporter screamed.

the girl could feel her heart starting to beat faster, her fist clenched, her tears now flowing out one after the other. she didn't want to be bombarded about this subject, she wished she could just have louis here to hug her and tell her everything would be okay.

"RIVER RIVER, DID YOU CHEAT ON TOMMY?"

"TOMMY SAID YOU CHEATED IS THAT TRUE?"

"Hey! get out of my sisters face!" rowan yelled, quickly swatting the men away from the two as she pulled her emotional older sister down the street.

Before rowan could loo back to her sister, river ran off. river had no exact idea as to what she was going to do, but she could feel the rush of an anxiety attack coming over her. The beat of her heart was going a million miles per hour, she could feel her head pounding, she was spinning as she ran her way home. She couldn't feel anything except the feeling of terror, its as if she as numb. There was nothing for her to do now, she just sobbed, running home, with no feeling toward her body or emotions. she was numb.

DAYS WENT ON and river had refused to come out of her room, she refused to see anyone, she refused to film, and she refused to eat and sleep. she simply sat in her room for hours upon hours, sinking into an anxiety relapse. She sat in her large soft mattress, holding onto her blanket for dear life. it was the only thing or place she felt the feeling of security. As each day grew, the more texts and messages river would get. But the girl refused to talk to anyone, she wouldn't dare face the fears of her outburst being publicly shared. She didn't want to talk to anyone also because she had the everlasting fear everyone would actually realize how much of a failure she was. In rivers eyes, she was scared everyone would hate her or turn on her. So instead she would let the sounds of buzzing text messages fill her room, as the days went.

Today was a day, river had to get out of her room. She had promised her mom she would eat something and possibly shower if she had felt up to it.

River arose from her bed, feeling the hot heat of the sun hit her skin. Squinting her eyes, she overthrew the blanket she had held to dearly and rushed to close her blinds. She dragged her feet across the carpeted floor as she walked over and pulled her sheet to a close.

"Good morning." Rowan shouted as she opened the door to her sisters room, walking in with a plate full of breakfast for her sister. Her face dropped at the sight of river actually being out of her bed, "Glad to see you are up." The girl grinned brightly.

"Promised mom I would get up and take care of myself today, not that I deserve it."

"But you do deserve it, you deserved to be cared for." Rowan protested as she placed the plate on her sisters desk, sitting on her bed. She patted the spot next to her indicating for river to come and sit, watching as river obeyed the motion, her sister spoke softly, "Believe me when I say this, everyone is worried sick about you."

"Yeah yeah, I know." She said, letting her head sink down in shame.

Rowan hands lifted her sisters head up to look at her, her teary eyes staring into her sisters eyes, "I love you. I don't want to see you like this anymore."

"I know."

"But you don't riv." rowan argued, "You are my older sister, even when we fight and bicker I still love you more than I can put into words."

"I could say the same thing here," Said a voice from the door. There stood at the door was tall slim British, otherwise known as the one and only Louis Hynes, "Sorry to ruin the moment, your mom let me in and said you were up here."

Rowan stood up from the bed, "Its fine, I can talk to river later." She offered as she started to make her way out of the room, "I'll let you two talk."

a / n ;
y'all this book is getting closer to the end and i'm emo
also welcome to this episode of giselle updates at 1am