Coma part 2
Its been a month now, and Bella is still not awake.
" Carlisle, whats going on why isn't she responding," I asked, tired as hell.
" She is registering everything people say, just not responding," He said, and i sighed.
" Come on darling, please wake up i miss you" I said, but got no response. I was slowly loseing a battle, that i could not win.
" Hey paul," Alice said, as she came and sat the other side.
" Hey, can you see when she will wake" I asked, why didn't i ask this before.
" Well if you leave, i can" She said, but i didn't want to leave.
" Well i do need sort a few things out, ill be back later look after her please," I said and she nodded. I left the hospital and ran into the woods and phased.
" Hey man, you don't look to good,"
" I know Seth, she still isn't awake"
" Thats been a month now dude, what the doc say,"
" Ill show you quil,"
I showed them what he had told me and my conversation with Alice.
" Well thats some good news, if she can see when"
" Yeah it is Seth, right I'm off home laters"
" Bye,"
They both said, in unison that is one thing i still couldn't get used to. I ran home, and Lisa was cooking.
" Hey Paul," She said, giving me a cuddle.
" Hey and thanks," I said, as she put a plate on the table for me. I quickly ate the breakfast that my body needed, and headed for my room. I had a nice long shower, and i felt relaxed. I quickly Freshened up, and headed back out the door. On the way to the hospital, i bought some flowers Lillys her favourite. I walked into her room and Alice let out a small smile.
" Im sorry paul, it goes all fuzzy when i try and see" She said, and sighed.
" Even with you gone, i still couldn't see a thing" She then slumped in her seat. I placed the flowers in a vase next to Bella's side, and took my seat next to her. Her hand was so cold, held within mine.
" Any news on Mike and Lauren," I asked, and she smiled
" Well lets just say, Guilty" She smiled, and my heart picked up the pace.
" Thank fuck for that," I smiled. We stayed in a comfortable silence, which i didn't mind. All i wanted was for my baby to wake up, so i could see those beautiful brown eyes.
2 Months
3 Months
4 Months
5 Months
Christmas was a month away now, its early November and she still isn't awake. Every day ive been coming to see her, but still no change. We couldn't even Celebrate her birthday properly. We had a few balloons up, and a few banners but un opened presents.
Mike and Laurens court case, was in February sometime. For the past few months i have been thinking of ending my life. What if she never wakes, and she is like this for years. Ive read cases before, where family's pull the plug because there was no sign of them ever waking up.
I'm starting to feel like that, i want them to pull the plug because she not responding. But who am i to say if that happens or not. I just wish she would respond, even if its just a little squeeze of the hand.
" Ill be back later Paul, okay" Alice said, and i nodded. I sat there looking at my Bella, i had noticed alice made her look alot better.
" Bella, im here darling please wake up soon," I said. I looked out the window and started to think on how a wolf could die. I could attack a Cullen and have them kill me. I could grab a knife now, and cut my self all over but i would heal from that.
Maybe a overdose on the fluids and crap going into bella. But then again, if i did how would everyone feel. I mean just say i did kill my self, and then Bella woke up. What about my Sister, and the Pack. I need to stop thinking all these things, and focus on my darling.
" What would you like for christmas, darling" I asked her, knowing she wouldn't answer.
" I was thinking of proposing to you, on christmas day," I said smiling. I then started to mumble about how i would do it. Should i get on one knee and ask. Should i do it smooth and cool, and be like
" Yo Bella, marry my sugar" No that sounds to gay.
" Yo Bella, Marry me toots" No that sounds worse. If the nurses could see me now, making my self look like a right idiot. I then sighed, and sat next to her again. I wanted this heart ache to go, i wanted the pain to vanish.
" Bella please wake up, i don't want to be here without you" I sobbed, all the tears that had been built up spilled over.
" Bella im sorry please forgive me darling," I kissed her soft cheek, and smiled. I then looked at the bedside table and smiled Pills perfect. I took them into my hand, and sat staring at them. Okay all i need is water now, and it will all be over. I stood up and headed for the sink, and slowly filled the glass up. I took Bella's hand and smiled.
" I love you my darling, you are my world and my everything. Ill never forget you, you was my first love and my only love. Goodbye my Bella please find someone to love you, as much as i do. By my love" I slowly lifted the pill to my mouth and smiled.
" Goodbye world,"
