I've Always Been There (Kaoru x Reader)

Chapter Fourteen: One Month Later

~(y/n) POV~
You know how sometimes life gets amazing, and everything finally seems like it's falling into place? Then it just starts falling apart again. You become confused, and upset and angry.
And disappointed.
That's the one feeling I hated the most. Disappointment.
One month ago, Hikaru set me and Kaoru up on a date. He wanted to push something to happen between us, and it worked.
Kaoru kissed me.
One month later, and he avoids me every chance he gets. He won't answer my calls, or texts. Won't talk to me in school, or the host club. I was so confused. I didn't understand it.

I'm currently sitting at the doctors, getting another X-ray for my arm. It had been healing faster than expected, and we were hopefully taking the cast off today. (I know broke bones don't heal that fast just work with me I'm sorry ;-; )
"How ya feeling honey?" My dad sat at my side, rubbing the top of my hand with his thumb. I sighed, looking down.
"Dad, what does it mean when a boy kisses you then ignores yo-"
"What?" His voice grew deep, and I jumped, laughing.
"N-nothing! Just a joke! Ahaha!" I tried playing it off, but he shook his head.
"Don't let a boy play with your heart. You've had enough heart ache, you don't need more."
He was right. I was going to confront Kaoru whether he liked it or not.
"Is it that Hitachiin boy?"
"W-What?"
"Honey. I might be old, but I'm not stupid. The way he looked at you when I first came back, that's the way I used to look at your mother. With such wonder and amazement. How the world had nothing as beautiful as her."
"He...saw all that in me?"
"He might not admit it, but he did. And the way you looked at him. You want to stay hidden, but you also want him to find your key and bring that smile out, huh?"
I sniffled, tears running down my cheeks as I nodded. He was right. I wanted him to understand me. I wanted him to find all my secrets, and darkness and take them away. I wanted him to show me people can stay, and not just leave.
"How about you have your friends help you at school tomorrow? Make him talk to you."
"Okay." I rubbed my tears as the doctor walked in with a smile. "Good news!"

~the next day, in the host club~

I took a deep breath as I walked into the doors. It had been a few weeks since I came in here, because I had figured they needed Kaoru more than me. If he was going to run away than I couldn't stay.
I had called everyone for an emergency meeting, excluding Kaoru. I sat on one of the lush couches, being the first there, and looked around the empty room. I frowned. I didn't understand what I had done wrong.
"(Y/n)?" The club members made their way into the room, but I had noticed something. Hikaru wore an empathetic look on his face. He knew why I wanted them here. He had to have.
"Hey, your arm!" Tamaki pointed out, noticing my now non casted arm. I smiled as I raised it up. "I'm finally a free woman!" I laughed, but quickly frowned.
"Guys, I need help."
They all sat down around me, Hikaru taking the spot beside and rubbing my back. I sighed, chewing on my lip, trying to not cry.
"I haven't come to club lately because of Kaoru."
"What did that shad-" Tamaki began, but was hushed by Hikaru.
"He kissed me, a month ago. But after that he won't speak to me, I'm like some kind of disease to him. I just want some answers. I don't want to be confused anymore." I lowered my head, letting my bangs hide my face as the tears hit my dress.
"Hikaru, has Kaoru said anything to you?" Kyoya asked, as he nodded.
"He told me about the date, and everything that happened. He ran off because he thinks he messed up, and is scared to ruin things. But he's also scared to start a new relationship."
"So this is the best answer..." I mumbled to myself, freezing as I heard the club doors open.
"What are all of you doing in here?" Kaoru's voice rang out. I looked up, tear stained cheeks and red eyes. Our eyes met, and he stiffened up, and quickly bolted. I sighed, running a hand through my hair.

It was the finally class of the day. I was anticipating the bell so I could just go home and eat my feelings. I could hardly pay attention to the teacher as the bell finally rang, and I zoomed out of the room, only to be stopped by some girls in the hallway. "Excuse me."
"(Y/n) (l/n). Threw yourself too much at Kaoru So now he completely avoids you, huh?" This girls smirk was irking me. I rolled my eyes, and went to shove past them, but she grabbed my arm, the one I had just gotten out of a cast, and still hurt.
"O-ow!" I winced, but she only held on tighter.
"Learn your place. Just because the hosts like you, doesn't mean we have to. Do yourself the favor to stop talking to them before we rebreak your arm."
My scream was caught in my throat as she twisted her hand, throwing me down. The air was knocked from my lungs as I panted, holding onto my aching arm.
"What's going on here?! What do you think you're doing to her?!" I looked up as a voice boomed through the hall, it was Kaoru.

~Kaoru's POV~
Hikaru and I were walking out the doors, not even talking. This last month he hadn't spoke to me much, all because of what I've been doing. The memory was still so fresh in my head. I couldn't believe I kissed her, I wasn't even thinking. She looked so...confused. I made a mistake, I should have waited. I wish Hikaru didn't make me participate in that stupid date.
I didn't want to avoid her. But I didn't want to hurt her worse. But...I know I am. I know I'm being an idiot, Hikaru's told me a hundred times. Every time I want to talk to her, I see her beautiful (e/c) eyes, and I get cold feet, and run.
My thoughts are interrupted by the sound of someone yelling slightly in pain. It wasn't loud, but I definitely noticed it. I looked over and saw a group of the girls in a circle, but one girl held someones arm in their grasp...that was (Y/n)! She had a tight grip on her still healing arm, and threw her to the ground. "Do yourself a favor and stop talking to them, before we rebreak your arm."
I dont know what came over me, but i ran over, huffing.
"What's going on here?! What do you think you're doing to her?!"
I looked down at (Y/n), who had tears threatening to spill from her eyes. My own eyes widened as she held onto her arm, and she looked away. I glared at the girl, who began to shake.
"W-wait! K-Kaoru she started it!"
"No, she didn't. She's not like that." I kneeled down, helping (Y/n) to her feet, then holding her close to my chest in a hug. "I'm sorry. Are you okay?" She nodded against my chest, and I looked to the girls. My glare held as I saw Hikaru walk up with his phone out.
"Kyoya will be talking to you all personally, we don't tolerate this kind of behavior in the host club."
"Y-you jerks!" They all cried out, running off. I sighed, pulling away from (Y/n), and looking into her eyes.
"Are you sure you're okay? Your arm.."
"I'm fine, Kaoru." She stated, and began to walk off. I went to reach for her, but Hikaru stopped me.
"What? I think I'm able to finally talk to her now."
"Why? Because she was a damsel in distress? Do you think that's what she wants?" He frowned, letting go.
"She doesn't want you to come to her rescue. She wants you to get over yourself and talk to her on your own terms." he jabbed an accusing finger into my chest. He was right. I shouldn't make an excuse to talk to her.
I looked in the direction she was walking from, then remembered something.
I knew what I should do.

~(Y/n)'s POV, the next day~

Yesterday was a wreck. My heart ached when Kaoru came to my rescue, but I also felt nauseous. It wasn't right, he shouldn't be speaking to me because I needed help.
He should talk to me because he wants to.
I took a breath, and opened my locker, finding another orange envelope. I raised my brow, carefully opening the note.

Dear (Y/n);

I cannot keep on watching you from afar. I need to talk to you. I need you to know me. I need you.
Please accept this inventstion to the Host Clubs Ball they are doing next week. It's a masquerade ball.
I'll be in the mask that's colored like this envelope.
Until then.

My heart thumped against my chest as I kept rereading the note. Who was this? Why were they so enticed by me? I stashed away the note, and grabbed my books and went to class.
I took a seat at my desk, and began to get my book out when I felt someone tap my shoulder. I looked up and saw Hikaru standing there.
"Oh, hey there."
"Hey, will you come to the host club today? Kaoru won't run off so you both can work your stations."
I thought it over, and nodded. Kyoya has been blowing up my phone the last week anyways, he was tired or all the boys bugging him on when I'd come back.
"Yeah, I guess it won't hurt any." I smiled, which he returned. "Awesome, I'll see you in the club room then!" He waved, walking back to his seat.
"Hmpf." I heard the girl beside me huff, turning her nose up.
"I'm sorry?"
"I don't get what they see in you."
I smirked, tapping my pencil against my chin.
"Maybe it's the fact I'm not so desperate for attention, or maybe the fact I dont screech when they walk in a room. I treat them like humans. Oh, or maybe how I know how to go easy on the make up and not look like a clown."
I was so tired of these stuck up girls.
But man, her jaw about hit the floor and she huffed again, turning away and grumbling to herself.
But trust me, clown girl,
I don't get what they see in me, either.

(Guys I hope my chapters are long enough. I really don't do a lot during the day so that's why I post so much, and I have a lot of free time. I'm really into writing this, and I hope you all are enjoying!
Until next time!)