Blair's Bucket list

Chapter 15- That awkward moment.

Blair's P.O.V-

After a blissful winter with Max, it's unfortunately coming to an end. Winter happens to be my favorite season, the snow covers the ground, almost like it's giving it time to renew itself, I need that. The problem with that is I barely have any left.

Max has been my rock, he's stayed with me every single exhausting, painful, fatal day. Luckily I've been staying strong for Max, I don't think he understands how much it means to me for him to be there, for me and with me.

Everything seems so imperfectly perfect, when I find my soulmate, I'm starting to die, I feel like I'm being punished in a way. Almost like God is like here's everything you want but, HA, you can't have it.

Even if I were to die today, I wouldn't have any regrets, I'd be content with the way I lived. Of course I'd be upset that Max and I weren't able to create a family, that I left him when he needs me the most, but I would cherish the fact that I met Max, when I did.

He looks at me with so much hope and love that I feel suffocated almost, he makes me feel things that are unexplainable.

It's funny because I always thought I'd die miserably but now I have no intention to die, not as long as I have Max.

My doctor thought Max and I were married because he shows up to every single appointment and exam I take. I wish I was his wife, in that moment I felt like lying and saying "yes, that's my husband isn't he remarkable?" Of course I didn't, but one day I hope I will be able to say that.

For Christmas, Max got me the greatest present of all, he got the one and only, Jennifer Lawrence to meet me, to say it was awesome was an understatement. She's a beautiful person inside and out, and I've become great friends with her, she's visiting Max and I for our graduation of high-school.

Also he is taking me on a road trip during spring-break so that should be awesome as well.

However he wasn't to fond of my gift, he liked the Harry Potter signed books but not the clothes part. I could tell by his face that he thought I went overboard but I could care less, I mean I friken love him! I can get him whatever the hell I want.

We had a heated discussion about the clothes until he accepted them, he looks even sexier now. I didn't know that was possible, to be honest.

Overall it was the best Christmas I've ever experienced.

As I've been becoming thinner and thinner I decided I wanted to start working out to gain something, of course I have to limit myself, but it's better than laying around all day. Max joins me most the time at the gym, I think he always has to be around me, not that I'm complaining.

Sometimes I get really bitchy with Max, when I say I become one, it's kind of an understatement. But Max being Max, always understands and agrees to anything I want.

One time I asked him to go to the store to get me "shit for my period", he came back with all the essentials, pad, tampins (as I would say), M&M's almonds, Almond joys, tissues, the movie White Chicks, EVERYTHING.

If you didn't catch onto it yet, I have an obsession with almonds, don't ask me why because I have no damn clue.

A deep voice brakes through my thoughts, "Babe, what are you thinking about?"

Oh yeah, Max's sitting right next to me.

I turn to him and grin "How perfect of a boyfriend you are." Cheesy? I know, but back off, I love him.

I nuzzle into his neck and smell him because he smells good, this makes him laugh.

"Don't smell me you weirdo." he laughs, I push his shoulders, "Maxwell, I do what I want, and if smelling you is what I want than so be it!"

He growls, actually growling yes, "I love when you're sassy." He starts kissing my neck, Jesus, he does this to kill me I swear.

"Stop!" I push him off me.

He whines then pouts.

I can't take him anymore, "Doctors orders baby." I tell him, he knows I want to devour him but I can't, I won't risk anything anymore.

"When has that ever stopped you?" Then he proceeds with kissing my neck, that's when I realize he's giving me a damn hickey!

"What the fuck Max? Why are you marking me, nobody wants a damn sick chick anyway." I yell at him.

"Trust me babe, people want you I see it all the time, I know someone who especially wants you." Then he rolls over so he's on top of me and starts grinding on me.

"Stop it!" I hiss at him.

"Can't."

"Put your dick away and listen to me you idiot." He doesn't stop. at all.

"But babe, I need this, it's been a while and I'm getting really hor-"

"Shut.up." I tell him because I can feel my restraint decreasing really quickly.

"Ugggghhhh." He groans and rolls off me.

"You've got a hand use it!" Hoping he'll somehow calm himself down that way.

"But you feel so much better." He moans clearly annoyed.

"Looks like it'll be my hands then." Then I climb on top of him.

"Fuck yes."

***

After Max leaves the house to hang out with his friends, I go downstairs in search of my mother. I haven't talked to that chick in a while...

"MA!" I yell into the huge house but I hear, nada.

So I go to the backyard in hopes of finding her but instead I find something else.

Let me tell you it's not pretty, not at all.

I scream and cover my eyes trying to find the best and fastest way to get to my room.

I sprint faster then I've ran in months and make it to the safety of my room.

You know after hitting the wall 23 billion times.

What the hell did I just witness?

I can't even begin to explain how awkward the next time I see her is going to be.

I found my mom skinny dipping in the pool with an unfamiliar man.

What.the.fuck.