Blair's Bucket list

Chapter 9- Loves in the air.

Max's P.O.V.

I shove a cracker filled with easy cheese in my mouth hoping it'll ease the tension. She's still gaping at me, like she's seeing Dooby from Harry Potter in real life, although that sounds awesome, It's not happening.

I mean, I did just confess my love for her but I thought she'd act totally different, like one of those girls from a romance movie, but then I have to remind myself that life isn't a movie, and we are not going to live happily ever after.

She's still sitting there, with her mouth wide open, and I'm still shoving crackers with easy cheese in my mouth.

"Are you just going to sit there and eat easy cheese crackers instead of talking about this."

"Says the one catching flies." I say with my mouth totally full.

"Your addictions getting out of hand." She laughs.

"Keep quiet, women." I mumble.

We lay there in silence. I feel as if she may have forgot what I've said but then she turns around and sits on me.

I look up at her beautiful brown eyes, that she hates, but I love. I see something shining in them, that I've never seen before. That's when I realize it's love.

"I'm totally and utterly in love with you Max, and I'm sorry I can't give you the forever you want, but I'll try. You make me want to fight this asshole that's continuing to spread within me, I'm going to try to fight the leukemia, but always remember, your the one who made me want to do it."

I've never been an emotional person, at all really, but right now, I'm crying, I'm crying for the girl I love, who has to fight cancer. The thing that sucks is that I can't help her or take the pain away.

"I'm sorry babe, I wish I'd be able to take all the pain you're going to feel away. I love you so much." I kiss her, this is our version of a romantic scene in a movie, I'm not complaining, anything with her is better than some cliche movie scene.

"Max, it's not going to be fun, I'm going to look sick, I'll have to go back on my chemo, I'll look like a corpse, and I couldn't ask you to wait for me, I mean I may not even make it through it, in the end you know? It may not be worth it." She whispers while shoving her head into my chest.

Rubbing her hair softly, trying to calm her, as well as myself, I'm still crying, like a little baby.

"Babe, I don't care if I have you for another month or if it's for 2 years, I'll take anything you give me. God, how can you not see how worth it you are? I'm willing to drop school this second just so I can be next to you all the time." I laugh, while crying, Jesus I am pathetic.

"You better continue school Maxwell! I'm still going, if the doctors will allow it of course, but I'm sure I can convince them somehow." She half laughs.

I smile down at her, I never thought I'd find someone as remarkable as her, and I'll cherish her for however long as I have her.

She's the reason why I've been living happily for the past 3 months. I didn't even know it was possible to fall in love with someone after 120 days, but I did, and it's with the most exquisite person I've ever known.

"I love you, I mean like I really do, I am irrevocably in love with you, and not even leukemia can change that." I smile sadly at her.

"Same for me, sexy, same for me. You're all there is for me."

She's my eternity.

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We finally decide to get up and off the beach, it took a while since we were both so emotional about everything life has brought on us.