Since her sister mayley was killed, Maylean's life is full of daily abuse by her dad. being lonely,she has learnt to keep everything for here self even to her two only freinds. She quickly links herself with her new classmate Noah Evans. A ruthless...
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Song: Billie Eilish-Hostage Oh hello asshole
All I wanted to do was yell. But I couldn't. I had to fake otherwise I knew what was happening after this act.
" Oh hello miss Evans and Noah." I say with a fake smile that was oubvious for Noah but not for his mother.
" Hello Mayleane how are you? I didn't see you since the funeral. Noah told me he brought you home." She said sweetly.
" Yes he brought me home and I definitely am fine".I say smiling. I could feel Noah smiling and staring at me . as the parent spoke, Noah was trying to make conversation with me but I made it clear that I didn't want to talk to asshole like him.
" May are you listening ?" He asked . I wasn't going to ignore him longer so I said what I wanted to say.
" One, don't call me May, It's Mayleane and two, I still have that fucking bruise from P.E. do you remember? Noah evans trying to kill me with a stare and a ball in dodgeball." I say sarcastically . He was now giving me a look I , or no one could understand.
" Look, Mayleane , It wasn't on purpose okay? Plus you did search for it."
Oh shit this guy was really getting on my nerves.
" It isn't because I Searched for it that I needed that Noah." I couldn't shout because I was trying to show a good side of me .
" Hey , if that's what you want to hear,sorry." He said. It was oubviously meaningless but getting angry a dodgeball hit was pretty immature.
" apology accepted." I say as I walk to sit on the table to eat.
When everyone was on the table, My dad started speaking to Noah.
" so are you in my wonderful daughter's class?" He said with a fake smile that was unnoticed.
Me wonderful? The girl you fucking hit everyday wonderful? I doubt that
" Yes I am and she is very nice, we just argue a lot. That's all." He said sincerely.
" How come you didn't tell me sweetie? " He asked me politely. I didn't answer. And to my surprise, My mum and miss Evans said. " Stop that you're making here blush." Everyone started laughing exept me . I faked like I was smiling of shyness or I don't know what. My mum nudged me in the hip so that I laugh too.
Even if It hurt, I laughed like it was okay. We continued eating and My parents and miss evans were talking like friends. Sometimes, Noah would kick my leg under the table which would make me laugh. My life seemed so perfect all of a sudden. Only if Mayley was here. Only if my parents were that nice.
If they can fake it shouldn't be that hard . tears were threatening to fall . before any could, I stood up from the table.
"Please excuse me". I said as I ran out of the living room. I went up the stairs and locked myself up in my room . I opened the window and just stayed there.
I can't help but wonder why they didn't send me away when I was born. It would have been easier for everyone.
I'm fucking tired of being like this. I hear steps going up the stairs. I dry my tears and act like I'm just taking some air. I turn around and see Noah . When I looked at him, I felt so safe and secure that that I broke.tears fell down once again and he came to hug me again."I suck for crying eachtime when you're here huh?" I say between a laugh and a sob.
" No, Mayleane .you just didn't free yourself the other time. let it out."
He said rubbing my back . As I carried on crying, Noah's hands fell on my waist but I was to sad to notice.
" I'm never free Noah. I get away from my pain but it comes back forcing me to fucking stay. I cry too much but I should know by now things will never change, I'll always be this girl, weak as shit , hurt and broken as fuck. do you know how many times I've wanted to end my life? How many times I've told myself that It wasn't worth living if they don't love me?" .
I say banging his chest. He wasn't to blame, I was . for killing my sister for not being good enough.
" It isn't true. You are good enough . Alright ?". He said like if he could read my mind. His thumbs were now forming cirles on my waist. It was so reassuring that I didn,t tell him to stop. I soonly wrapped my arms around his neck and dipped my head into his chest .
We stayed like that till I lifted my head and saw him staring directly at me.
I saw his eyes flicker to my lips and I didn't realise I was reacting the same way. When we both knew what was going on, We froze and kept staring at each other. The beautiful moment was interrupted when my dad was screaming my name from the living and Noah's mum who was yelling his. We let go of each other and went own stairs.
Noah's mum was going to ask what we were doing up there but she didn't, knowing how bothered me and Noah looked.
The rest of the dinner happened in a happy mood and I tried to concentrate on the food forgetting ll my daily miseries.
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I mainly listen to BTS and Billie Eilish songs while I write my chapter and if a song goes well for a chapter I write well ,I'll put it .
so be ready for some BTS and Some Billie Eilish guys!!!
