Since her sister mayley was killed, Maylean's life is full of daily abuse by her dad. being lonely,she has learnt to keep everything for here self even to her two only freinds. She quickly links herself with her new classmate Noah Evans. A ruthless...
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Song : NF - Remember This (scroll for the music) What about love?
I didn't sleep after that. I spent hours staring at the wall. Literally thinking straight I had no one. Noah didn't even care, Trisha and Destiny will be mad and leave me when they find out it took 3 years for me to tell them about my dad. Let's not even talk about my mum she is so useless.
I wonder how I'm gonna live if I have nothing left. I thought about killing myself.
Why live when no one loves you?
When the least you ask can't be given?
When you don't even have what you need?
That's what I felt empty, tired. I couldn't cry anymore but that was okay. Even if there was about 10 empty bottles of water around me my throat still felt dry. Resisting the urge to shout, I put my hand around my neck and I close my mouth. I wanted to drown in a endless sleep where everything was so calm and peaceful. I close my eyes shut and stop breathing. When I let go of everything I stay quiet. That's when I hear someone shout. I look around me but find no one. I close my mouth and realise the sound stops. I turn around and stand up to go face the miror. I look like shit as always..
No one loves a useless girl,the voice in my head says. I try to rub off the previous tear stains and arrange my hair but nothing works. Although it was late, I go to the bathroom and have a long shower.
I get out and go down to the kitchen to take something to eat. I make my self a nutella sandwich and head back upstairs. As I enter my room I see Noah sitting on it.
"What are you doing here?" I ask. I come closer and sit next to him. He sighs. " I can't sleep ."He said sighing. I faced him and stared.
" so you come here...In my room. " I say asking for explanation.
He stands up and leaves.
" No you can stay just that I wasn't expecting you here. " I say quickly. He shakes his head and walks off.
" Who cares. I'm going out. Tell my mom if she wakes up that I'm at a friend's house." He says. I nod and watch him head out of the door.
I go back to bed hoping I would be able to sleep.
Noah pov
I walk out of her room. I don't know what's wrong with me. This girls driving me crazy but I won't fall. I can't. It will be a weakness and I will put her in danger. I change into my sports uniform and go for a walk. I jump out of my window, and run to the underground.
I don't have the keys to it. But I know a secret passage, that leads to it.
I take the door behind and force it opened. I enter taking off my shoes and wrapping my hand with wrap tape. Once I'm finished, I take off my hoodie and put it aside.
I start stretching slowly and then hit the punching bag. Slowly at first but my punches soon start to get rough and speedy.
I can't punch
Let myself punch
Fall for her punch
With these words in my mind. I punch harder and harder in the punching bag till I feel my self loosen up. But I never do.
I nearly reach the amount of money I needed to get my buddy out of jail. This meant this was nearly finished. I was relieved because I hated it. I didn't want to stay here beating people . I did make my emotional pain fade away but it was making me emotionless. And that's not what I wanted.
After an hour or two, I run back home. I come from my window but my light was already on.
I enter to see mayleane on my bed. Her hair was messy and she was in a t-shirt and shorts. She usely only wore jeans and so I never got to see the bruises covering her legs. Catching me looking, she covers her legs with the blanket. She looks away shamefully. I approach her and sit on the bed.
"what are you doing in my room?" I ask coldly. She's taken a back from my tone and starts to stand up. " I was waiting for you. I freaked out when I didn't see you in your room. I can't afford losing someone again."she says silently.
She covers her face with her hair and lays back down. Every movement of hers was beautiful. She was a broken angel. My angel but she didn't know it yet.
" you shouldn't care about me I don't deserve your love "I say.
" who spoke about love? I don't love you. In anyway. Sometimes your good sometime you're bad. I'm never sure what to think about. So love come on don't be full of your self. " she says sarcastically but seriously.
Honestly, I was shocked, I was embarrassed of the way she said all of that shit. It did hurt but I didn't say anything.
" well, I find it quite mean mayleane. Because I've been helping you with your problems from the start. I'm doing what I can to stop hearing you cry every night. I've been good to you I've tried my best. Who's house are you in? Mine. Im keeping you here, making you feel good, giving the space you need and you say you hate me ? " I say getting angry.
" I didn't mean it like that. I - I "she stammered.
" Just get out please. I need time to think. " I say.
She doesn't move a bone. She stays in the same position. What she does next shocks me.
She lays on top of me me and kisses me. My hands automatically grab her waist pushing her closer. A hand on my neck and the other playing with my hair, I forget everything around me. Fighting for dominance, I give up. I lean myself in her letting mayleane take control. My hand roams on her thigh and quickly comes back to her waist.
She pulls back out of breath. After staring a each other , I lean back in demanding more.
Tangled tongues, sharing our body heat, never getting enough of these feelings. Mind of mine, finding love, maybe one day it will be enough.
0o0.
So I know it's taking time to get a chapter done. I've been occupied with school and I'm finally on holiday. Its late but happy easter .
