Still Adjusting (New Adjustments part 2)

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"Why y'all gotta stay here tonight? Why can't y'all niggas go to someone else?" Alex asked as he walked with me to my locker once school ended. It is Friday and my girls are coming over tonight to chill and relax and just get away from life for a while and enjoy each other's time.

"Alex, shut up. Let us be. Go to yo friends house like Que did damn. Nobody said you had to stay with us. We are grown if you didn't know that already." I told him as I opened my locker and put all my books in my bag. Midterms are next week and the week after and we have a lot of studying to do.

"Man, fuck it D. Fuck it!" He yelled then stormed off.

"Excuse me?" The algebra teacher asked.

"I'm sorry Mrs. Williams." Alex said as he walked away.

Khris and Jos are all in Khris' car and Nae is riding with me. We are going to my house to drop our stuff off and then hit up the mall. I'm so excited to just chill with my girls and have some fun. It's been kinda stressful with midterms and college stuff and of course the stuff with Trey, but I'm ready to just have some fun.

My mom is a little over eight months pregnant and she should be popping out pretty soon. I'm so excited! But she will not be with us this weekend. She is going out of town to visit you know who. She wants him to know what's up and give him the chance to be in this new child's life but we all know he doesn't want to. He didn't want to be in our life so how do we know this new baby would be any different? I don't think he told his wife he got my mom pregnant yet.

"Nae and Jos are waiting by my car. We are ready whenever you are."

I looked over and Khris was standing next to me with her bag hanging off her shoulders.

"Oh yea, let's go. I was just making sure I had everything." I told her as I tired to shake the thoughts of my dad out of my head.

She looked at me like I was hiding something. "Nah, you were thinking about your dad? We all know that look."

"I have a look?" I exclaimed.

She looked at me like I was slow. "Yes, you and Alex have the same look. He just doesn't show his as often. You don't either but you show it a little more than he does."

"Well damn. I think I should probably stop thinking of him huh?" I laughed as I closed my locker.

"You think, but let's go. I'm hungry!"

I chucked and we walked out to the parking lot.

We all piled into the cars and drove to my house then carpooled to the mall.

"Okay soooo what are we eating because I'm hungry as fuck!" Jos said as we strolled into the mall entrance. 

"I don't even know." Khris replied as she was typing something on her phone. Probably texting Mar...

"Ooooh, I want some Chinese food!" 

"Don't nobody want that nasty shit but you Dria." Jos joked.

I looked at her like she was crazy. "Don't start with me, yesterday you called me talking about some fried wontons and some lo mein. Calling me at 2 in the morning bugging me and shit, girl bye." 

"You have a point there." 

We all laughed at her. 

We spend about a few hours at the mall. Eating, walking around, doing a little shopping. Just enjoying each others company. Once we returned back to my house, we dove into studying. 

Senior year is one of the most stressful years in high school. Mostly because this is where we wrap up our high school years and make sure everything is set but also figure out our lives and what's next. 

I'm pretty sure I will go to college in Atlanta. I mean it's home and I miss it. But I don't want to leave Trey. I don't think he's chosen which college he will go to and I don't want him basing his future off of me. I want him to freely chose where he wants to go and not feel like he has to base his decision around me, you know?

I would love it if we could go to the same college and continue what we're building together. I believe he is my soulmate and I love him with all my heart. But I don't want him to feel obligated to share his life with me. I just...I don't know. I just want him to be happy and if that means going to separate colleges then that's what's going to happen. I want the best for him.