the wrong direction [COMPLETED]

twelve

day 4-the church's view on homosexuality

today i was woken up by down with the sickness once again because it seemed as if everyone in the cabin was fast asleep and no one could wake me up early. well, fast asleep until they heard the familiar screaming of the song.

"ugh, that is something i don't like waking up to in the morning," ryan groaned from the bed next to me.

"at least it wakes you up quick. be grateful it's not cancer by mcr or some shit," i responded.

"you're right," jon started. "that song is a bop but it is also a bop i could fall asleep to very easily."

"well, mcr songs aside, what lesson is it today?"

"i don't know, dal. jon, you constantly have a schedule somewhere in your area, will you look?" spencer questioned.

"yeah, there's one in my nightstand drawer."

he pulled the schedule from the drawer and groaned as he caught sight of what our lesson was for today.

"it's the church's view on homosexuality," he said, a look of annoyance spreading across his face. he then pretended to gag himself as more groans were heard from all over the cabin.

"time to debunk everything marilee has to say about the church being against gays!" i exclaimed.

"i have enough of this church shit at home, i hoped that by going here i would get away from it for a little while."

"me too, ry. my aunt sally was a nun so she drags us to church at least every sunday," dallon added.

"ew," we all responded unanimously.

******

"hello, students! before we start our lesson, i have a question. how many of you are practicing catholics?" marilee asked.

no one raised their hand.

"none of you? you devilish children!" marilee said with a laugh that made alex cringe.

"i don't go to church anymore because it's bs," jon interjected.

"to you it might be, but the wonders of the church are amazing!" marilee exclaimed a little too joyfully, if you ask me.

"actually, i don't think the church is all it turns out to be," lynn added.

"would you care to elaborate, miss gunnulfsen?"

"there was just recently a scandal on many homophobic remarks made by the pope, i read about it the day before i came here. he said that homosexuals should not be let into the consecrated lifestyle because he's scared they won't be able to keep their vows of celibacy just because they're around the same sex. pretty unaccepting for a "love everyone" type of religion."

"maybe he had the right idea!"

"should i even bring up the sexual assault scandals made by priests in the last decade that were ignored by the church just because the men assaulting were priests?"

"no, lyndsey, you shall not. we start today off with a bible verse."

"we all know which one it's going to be," ashley started, "that one weird ass leviticus one."

"it is from the book of leviticus, yes. would somebody care to read it from the board?" marilee questioned, jon immediately raising his hand. "jonathan?"

"the whole book of leviticus is bullshit and this line does not have any effect on me."

"jack, you just read it, this room is full of sinners who refuse to cooperate."

"uh, okay. do not lie with a man as one lies with a woman, that is detestable."

"god, i fucking hate the bible," ryan whispered to me. i nodded my head at him subtly in agreement.

"what does this verse mean?" marilee asked her son.

"that homosexuality is not normal and is wrong," he said in an annoyed tone. but, marilee didn't seem to notice.

******

the entirety of that lesson was basically just comprehending bible verses that supposedly go against being gay; not that any of them changed our minds. we knew that this camp was not going to help us shun being gay, let alone convert us to heterosexuality. but, maybe this camp can do something for me.

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i'm honestly thinking about ending this soon but hm you never know what's in store