Learn To Live Again | Namkook

Chapter 11

Hoseok POV

Biting my lip nervously, I get out of the car once I reach the park. After the call with Taehyung, I know exactly which park he's at. Now the only question is, where the hell in the park is he?

Not seeing him at his usual bench, I run a hand through my hair and start down the path that he and Jimin used to take. I keep my eyes open as I look around, knowing the possibility that he's strayed from the path for pictures.

"Come on, Kookie. Where the hell are you?" I mutter to myself as I begin jogging down the path. Having an idea of what he and Namjoon had mildly argued over worries me.

I know he's been doing fairly well lately, but it's also been a long time since anyone's said a single thing about Jimin. Between that and the fact of how harsh Namjoon was on him, it really worries me.

The worst part about all of this is that he's alone. He never talks about his feelings and thoughts, and when he's struggling mentally he needs company. He needs company and comfort. Otherwise, he get really hard on himself and that can get dangerous.

He's not done anything bad when he gets hard on himself other than that he's pushed his body further than he should have before. That wasn't even a year after...

It was a scary day when we were all out. It was noticeable that he was pushing himself to be as healthy as possible. He'd been working out a ton, to the point where Tae and I grew worried but Jin hyung said that it's probably healthy that he was taking his stress out that way.

However, when he wouldn't eat very much because of how picky he'd became about eating healthy... that's when things got bad. It was the only time we'd seen him in a bad state. It surprised all three of us when he nearly fainted one day because we were messing around in a different park and it was too much on his body.

He forced himself to get better after that, but we all still worry about him. Jungkook was always so close to Jimin. Those to were extremely close, though it's not hard to believe. Considering they were roommates together and Jimin treated him like the little brother he'd never had, it was easy to understand why they were so close.

So when... everything happened... needless to say we all were extremely worried for Jungkookie. Being the youngest and taking on everything he did, it was impossible to tell just how bad he'd be afterwards.

He's definitely impressed all of us though. He's handled himself and everything so well that nobody would ever believe that he's always been the youngest out of our friend group. Or that he's as young as he is.

Eventually, I find Jungkook. I sigh in relief when I spot him, standing calmly on a bridge as he looks out at everything before him. Jogging over to him, he doesn't bother looking over at me.

"Hi, hyung." He says with a small smile, still not looking at me.

"You doing okay, Kookie?" I ask softly as I move to stand beside him. He smiles once again, nodding his head.

"You know you can tell me if you aren't, Jungkook." I remind him gently, putting a hand on his shoulder. He shrugs, looking over at me still smiling as he nods his head.

"I know, hyung. I'm okay." He says softly, looking back out at the river laid out in front of us.

"I heard this Namjoon kid snapped at you pretty badly this morning. Wanna talk about it?" I ask, trying to get something out of him. He merely shrugs again though.

"It wasn't anything bad, hyung. He mentioned something about his friend that I'm assuming is the one who's death he's struggling with. I shouldn't have said anything on it and I did. I don't blame him for getting upset about it." He explains quietly, not looking over at me.

"He shouldn't have snapped at you the way he did though, Jungkook. That's not fair to you. Just because he lost someone close to him doesn't mean he gets to be shitty to you as if you didn't lose someone close to you as well." I tell him with a frown. Jungkook just smiles though with a small shrug.

"He has no idea about Jimin, hyung. I haven't told him about any of that and I don't really plan to unless he really wants to know or unless something important depends on it. You know how I am, hyung." He says softly, biting his lip as he looks down.

"Kookie, he doesn't have the right to claim you don't know how he feels when he doesn't know the first thing about you. The two of you need to talk and sort things out and actually get to know each other better so that these type of things don't keep happening." I sigh, placing a hand on his shoulder again.

"I'll be fine, hyung. Besides, I'm not going to just force him to get to know me and vice versus. If that's what he wants, then we can do that. If he doesn't want to get to know me or anything, then so be it." He informs me with a small smile.

I sigh again, rolling my eyes with a small smile of my own, knowing he won't waved from that. He really is the sweetest and most caring person ever.

"Come on. It's getting cold out and Tae is back at your place with Namjoon worried sick about you." I say, nudging him gently with a small smile. He returns the smile, nodding his head before we both begin heading back.

I just hope that Namjoon will give Jungkookie a chance. They could really do well together and become really good friends if he'd just let Jungkook in a bit.