Learn To Live Again | Namkook

Chapter 25

Namjoon POV

After around an hour of Jungkook and I hanging out in his room, I think the others all left. I waited a little longer before suggesting to him that we leave the room.

As much as I wanted to talk to him about the kiss and about Yoongi hyung, I decided that he really did just need a day to cope and relax a bit. So when we finally moved into the living room, we ended up watching movies all day while I kept him next to me. After about halfway into the first movie, he relaxed and finally curled up into my side and we pretty much stayed like that for most of the rest of the day.

"Hyung, it's time to get up." Jungkook calls from the other side of my door as he knocks on it.

Sighing to myself, I pull myself out of bed and head over to the door. Opening it up, he gives me a bright smile.

"Actually, Jungkook. Would it be okay if we skipped class today? I... I kinda wanted to talk to you about a couple things." I request nervously, rubbing the back of my neck as I speak. He frowns, giving me a confused look.

"I... I guess we can. I'll text Tae that we're not coming in today and that you're not feeling well or something." He tells me before walking away. I smile down at my feet before walking away from the door and heading to the bathroom to get ready for the day in order to help wake myself up.

"Is everything okay, hyung?" Jungkook asks as I enter the main area where he's setting our breakfast down at.

"Yeah, everything's fine. I just wanted to talk about a couple things before we head to class." I explain with a small smile. He gives me a curious look but nods his head as we sit down and begin to eat.

We stay silent through breakfast, and we don't bother to talk as he cleans up the dishes and everything. Though, while he does that, I move over to the couches in the living room.

"So what did you wanna talk about, hyung?" Jungkook asks curiously as he soon joins me on the couch, sitting completely sideways on the furniture to face me.

"Taehyung and Hoseok told me about your past a bit..." I inform him softly, glancing up at him from the couch cushion that's sat between us. I watch as his face falls, realizing where the conversation is heading as he solemnly nods his head.

"They said you were really close with Yoongi hyung, though you were closer with Jimin since you lived with him." I say, looking over at him once again as he nods once more.

"Jungkook,... I'm sorry. When we... when we first met, I... I didn't think you had any idea how I felt. I didn't really believe too much that you'd actually lost anyone. And I yelled at you a week ago, claiming you had no right to say anything about my hyung... I didn't know at the time, just how wrong I was. Jungkook,... Yoongi hyung was my roommate. He and I lived together... I'm sorry for how I've treated you and for how I've hurt you since I came here.

"I... I didn't think you had any idea how I felt. I didn't think you knew my hyung, and certainly not the way I did. You knew my pain a lot more than I realized, and I'm really sorry. For everything." I explain softly, struggling to get all of the words out.

"Hyung, I was never mad at you for how you acted. I never blamed you for any of it. I knew you were hurting and that it was the reason for how you were being. I can't imagine how difficult it must've been for you to have to live with him as he was going through everything. He adored you as much as he did Jimin, just as a brother towards you rather than the way he felt for Jimin hyung. I'm sorry you had to go through all of that." He tells me gently, causing my eyes to snap up and look at him.

He's got tears in his eyes but he's smiling. Just like always, he's smiling. Taking a deep breath, I rub my hands over my face a few times.

"I just... I wanted to apologize. I never knew just how far in the wrong I'd been." I mumble quietly.

"Hyung, I forgave you a long time ago." He says, causing me to look up at him once again. Though, this time with a small smile on my face.

"Thank you, Jungkook." I whisper, trying to get a grip on myself so that I can discuss the next thing with him somehow.

"You can call me Jungkookie or Kookie if you'd like, hyung." He informs me softly. I can't help but smile widely at his words as I look back over to him before looking away again.

"Yoongi hyung had a nickname for me if you want... He'd always call me Joon or Joonie. So if you want... you can call me either of those." I breathe out.

"So what was the other thing you wanted to talk about, Joonie?" He asks, chuckling softly as he looks at me happily. Biting my lip, I take a deep breath before speaking.

"I wanted to talk about us..."