Learn To Live Again | Namkook

Chapter 20

Jungkook POV

Before I realize what's happening, Namjoon presses his lips against mine. In an instant, my entire body feels deprived of oxygen before he seemingly hesitantly moves his lips against mine.

Already feeling lightheaded from what's happening, I slowly respond to the kiss as I move my lips in sync with his. Though, as he continues the kiss, I feel myself slowly relax into it as he places one hand on my cheek whilst his other hand gently plays with my hair as he moves it out of my face.

Still extremely nervous and entirely inexperienced with any and all of this, I hesitantly put one of my hands on his cheek as well. Eventually though, as the cart jerks to continue on in its path as they move onto the next cart at the bottom, Namjoon ends up pulling away.

As we both sit back in our seats, I look over at him silently in surprise. However, at this point, he's now avoiding eye contact. Not just eye contact, but any and all contact as he moves his legs as close to his seat as he can without actually pulling them up onto the seat with him.

Biting my now slightly swollen lip gently, I force myself to look away as well. With everything left in me, I hold back tears as the rest of the ride is now dead silent and awkward.

After what feels like eternity, we finally reach the bottom of the ride again. I let Namjoon get off first, running away as fast as I possibly can as soon as I'm off after him. I ignore the shouts coming from Taehyung and Hoseok hyung, ignoring the tears now heavily falling down my face at this point as well as I continue running to wherever the hell my feet take me.

Namjoon POV

My eyes widen as he rushes away from us in a heartbeat, Taehyung and Hoseok both shouting for him to come back as he ignores us. Biting my swollen lip and lowering my head, I sigh and head over to the area to pick up Jungkook's stuffed dog that I'd won for him.

"What the fuck did you do to him now?!" Hoseok shouts at me as I return to them, grabbing me by the collar of my shirt.

I can see Taehyung off to the side, pacing in a circle as he runs his hands through his hair continuously. There's tears in Hoseok's eyes as well as he holds me tightly by my shirt.

"I-I..." I fumble for words, not knowing how to explain to them that I kissed their best friend.

"What the fuck did you do?!" Taehyung screams at me, freezing in his tracks as he looks over at me, tears now streaming down his face. Shit, I really fucked up...

"I fucking kissed him, okay?" I mumble softly, lowering my head. Hoseok lets go of me, taking a step back.

"You... What?" He asks quietly, the tone of his voice completely different from what it was just seconds ago. I sigh, running a shaky hand through my hair.

"I kissed him..." I repeat softly, feeling tears now well up in my eyes as I realize how badly I must've fucked up for him to have ran off like that.

"Did you... say something to him afterwards or something? I... I don't get it. What happened? You kissed him but..." Taehyung asks gently, seemingly terribly confused.

"I didn't say anything. I... kinda panicked after I kissed him and wouldn't look over at him or anything. We stayed silent the rest of the ride." I explain with a sigh, feeling beyond defeated at this point.

"This isn't your fault, Namjoon. Come on, I'll take you home. I'll have you and Tae wait back at your apartment while I go off to find Kookie once I drop the two of you off." Hoseok says gently.

I frown in confusion as I look up at them. Neither one of them seems angry, but they both seem extremely worried.

Not saying anything, I follow the two of them out of the fair grounds and back to Hoseok's car. I remain silent the entire drive back while listening to Taehyung and Hoseok conversing a little.

"Hyung, you realize he could way the fuck gone by the you're driving around to look for him right?" Taehyung asks softly as Hoseok continues driving.

"We know the places he's likely to head, Tae. That's a start. He knows his way around everywhere way better than he realizes and that's the one thing we have to hope for. Is that he takes himself somewhere that we can find him." Hoseok responds quietly.

"I'm really worried for him, hyung... He hasn't run off like that since... you know." Taehyung tells the older boy.

"I know, Tae. I know. I'm worried for him too. But he's been claiming to do really well lately. We just have to hope that it's true and that he's really doing better than what we believe."