If I Awake

Chapter 6

Today is the day I start chemo, Harry came with mom and I. I told him that he didn't have to but he said that he wanted to be here for me. He watches as I hooked up to everything and I see him cringe at the needles, which shouldn't be a problem for him since he has tattoo's.

"Why are you cringing? I wouldn't think you had problem with needles considering a needle had to give you all those tattoo's" I say with a smile.

"I don't it's just seeing one that big go so far into your skin, I don't like it. It looks painful and I don't want you in pain babe."

"You tend to get used to it after a while."

"You don't want to see her in pain?" The nurse that's filling in for my usual nurse says to Harry.

"No I don't. Never."

"You picked the wrong girl to date then, because she's going to be in pain with all this chemo." What the hell? She can't say things like that. I look at Harry and he looks just as shocked as mom and I.

"I'm sorry and whats your husbands name?" harry says to her.

"I'm not married."

"Boyfriend?"

"No boyfriend either." She says to him.

"Alright how about you stop judging my relationship when you don't even have one, I picked the right girl to be with. So just because your the wrong one don't give us shit."

"Alright all done." The nurse says to me and she leaves the room, I haven't seen Harry get mad before. 

"Wow Harry."

"I know I was so mean, I hated it."

"You did?" My mother laughs.

"Yes, I think I'm going to go apologize."

"Harry it's okay, she'll be fine. She was rude first anyways." I say.

"Yeah but-"

"Harry, don't go." I inturupted, after I said that he came and layed next to me and held me in his arms and kissed my forehead. We all talk while we wait for me to be able to leave, a different nurse comes in this time and Harry tells her to tell the other nurse he was sorry for being rude.

On our way home Harry and my mom kept singing old songs together, it was pretty funny actually. We get home and I lay on the couch and Harry holds my head in his lap while he plays with my hair and rubs my cheek.

"I'm tired." I whisper.

"You wanna go upstairs babe?"

"I don't feel like walking."

"No problem." Harry lifts me into his arm carrying me bridal styles up to my room, he lays me on the bed and covers me up.

"Thank you."

"Your welcome babe, do you want or need anything?" He asks.

"Yeah."

"What is it babe?"

"You." He smiles and crawls into bed with me, I roll over so the I'm facing him while he holds me. the smell of his cologne, the touch of his hands makes me feel so much better.

"You alright ?"

"I am now." I say and I feel a smile starting to happen on his face while its against my forehead. We lay there for a while in silence while I play with the hair that has fallen over his shoulders. I look up at him and he gives me a "What?" smile, I palce a hand on his cheek and begin to kiss him softly.

"What are you doing babe?"

"Shh, just shh." I say, as I move to where I'm laying on him, he doesn't protest, everything is started to get really heated now. The way his hands are moving on my back, how he kisses me with so power. 

"Mm babe, we have to stop." 

"What why?" I ask while moving off of him.

"I'm not going to break any rules and i have to much respect for you to have sex with ypu so soon. I want to wait to have sex so that when we do your first time will be amazing and you'll know I won't be leaving you."

"My first time? How did you know I'm a virgin."

"I just know."

"Harry, tell me." He smiles at me.

"Your parents told me."

"They did?"

"Yes, they told me when I was planning our date."

"Why did they tell you?"

"Because they wanted to me to know and they don't want me breaking your heart. I told them I wouldn't ever hurt you, that the only way I was leaving you is if you told me to leave." He says and an aw escapes my mouth, he pulls me closer to him and holds me. 

The next day I made Harry go to work so he wouldn't get in trouble, Aron came over and hung out with me and I told him about everything with Harry and I.

"I'm sorry for doubting him at first Melanie."

"It's okay, you were just trying to protect me."

"I was and I stil and, look I don't want you hurt and I'm hoping he doesn't hurt you because I can see how happy he makes you. So I just really hope he sticks with his word." He says and I sigh.

"You have no idea how much I'm hoping he does to." We continue to talk about lots of things, when Harry got back him and Aron sat and had a conversation and I went and talked with mom.

"Harry is a really great guy sweetie."

"He is mom."

"You really like him don't you?" She asks.

" I do mom, I don't know what it is about him but I feel so lost when he's not around and I feel like I'm in pain or something. But when he's with me, I don't know it's like the pain stops and I don't feel lost anymore. All of the things I feel when he's gone is replaced with happiness and butterflies when he is around."

"You seem much happier with him."

"I do?"

"Yes, if he makes you this happy and makes you feel that way. Don't ever let him go sweetie." I don't want to lose him.

"I'm wouldn't be the one letting him go, he'd let me go."

"He says the same about you."

"Yeah but, I fear that when everything with chemo starts getting bad that he will leave because he won't be able to deal. I fear that so much mom and I don't know what to do."

"You knwo what I think?" She says to me.

"What?"

"I think if he was going to leave because of your cancer that he would've already left." I didn't even think about it that way, maybe she's right. I look over at Harry and he's smiling at me and I can't help but give on in return.

"Do you think he's happy with me?"

"Are you kidding me? That boy thinks the sun rises and falls with you Melanie, he's probably has more feelings for you thant you know baby girl."

Hey everyone, This chapter I know is short but I'm not feeling very well tonight but I needed to update, so here it is I hope you enjoy it! Go and check out my other fanfic Fall in New York and check out @Stylish-Styles fanfic Stay! I love you all so much and thank you for reading!