If I Awake

Chapter 11

We've been walking around the mall for what feels like hours now, my feet hurt and I'm getting a head ache from Sam talking so much. She's still annoying, she keeps bragging about things and everything her mom and dad buys her. Her hair looks likes it's dry and like she bleaches it or something.

Why would she have to bleach it if she's already blonde?

Unless her hair color is fake.

Probably, it would fit with the rest of her.

I look up at Harry and he smiles and I roll my eye's which makes him laugh. He then gives me a look like "Oh my god I know! She never shuts up!" Which makes me laugh, honestly I never pictured Aron liking someone like her. He's so not her and she's so bleh. I mean maybe he see's something in her that we don't, maybe there is something great about her and I just haven't been paying much attention to notice.

"Melanie how did we get so lucky to have the life we have?" Okay yeah I don;t see what ever he see's.

"I don't think you could really say you have it lucky when your having daddy and mommy pay for everything of yours."

"It's not like your not doing it."

"Yeah but my parents don't by me everything because I don't need everything."

"I guess that's the difference between us, some of us get to live life and others get to...visit it."

"Fuck you!" I shout and it actually takes everyone by surprise, my self included.

"Melanie!"

"Aron I'm sorry but really? Her? You couldn't have found anyone else that's not such a stuck up bitch?"

"Melanie stop! WHat is the matter with you?" Aron shouts.

"Whats the matter with me? She's sitting there making fun of my sickness and your not saying a damn thing about it!" 

"Melanie I'm not doing anything but pointing out the obvious." Same says, I walk over to her and start to grab her before Harry pulls me back. I'm so angry right now that I don't even feel how hard Harry is holding me.

"Screw you Sam! Your a fake bitch that does nothing but brag about what she has! And yeah I may be dying but deep down so are you and that's why you make people feel so shitty!"

"Come on babe we need to go." Harry says and he pulls me away from the fight, I turn and look at Aron one last time. He's just standing there like nothing happened, like he doesn't care.

We get home and I go to my room, Harry goes into the kitchen probably to talk to my parents about what happend. The car ride home he asked if he should tell them and I told him that it was probably the best thing to do.

I can't believe Aron didn't stick up for me, we've been best friends since we were kids and he didn't try and stop her for the way she was acting. Maybe he's grown tired of me, he has been different lately, but still he didn't have to invite Harry and I if he's grow apart from me. I don't understand why though, like have I done something wrong? 

"Melie?"

"Yeah dad?" Aron is at the front door he wants to speak to to you." Why is he here? Tpo tell me that what I did was rude? I go down stairs and to the front door. Harry walks over and puts his arm around me and gives Aron a look like "Why the hell are you here?"

"Melanie can I talk to you? Alone please?" He says looking at Harry, Harry then looks down at me and I give him a nod telling him I'll be okay. Aron and I walk outside on the front pourch.

"What do you want to talk about?"

"isn't it obvious?"

"If your here to tell me it was wrong that I said what I said then I don't want to hear it, you should've stood up for me."

"Melanie, I'm not here for an apology I'm here to say I'm sorry for letting her say those things."

"Why did you let her say it? Why didn't you tell her to stop?" I say.

"I don't know."

"Yes you do, I've known you forever Aron and I can tell when your lying."

"I don't know Melanie, maybe because I didn't think it would make you mad."

"But when you realized that I was mad you told me to stop, not her!"

"Maybe because I'm tired of being alone! Did you think of that? Melanie I don't have anyone."

"Aron you have me!"

"Not since Harry! You two are always together Mel and it's never just us hanging out anymore! It's liked you've dropped me because I'm not him!" Oh my god, does he really feel this way?

"Aron, your my best-"

"Stop! Don't even say that because it's like we're not best friends anymore! Harry has came into your life and has replaced everyone else! We never have our time! We were always hanging out! We always had movie nights and nights where we'd sit around and be bored and even those night where we'd sit in the car and listen to music just to make it feel as if we were going somewhere! But now that you and Harry are together, we never hangout or do anything and when we do he's around and it's just not the same!"

"I don't mean to make you feel that way Aron, but Harry and I are dating and I can;t just make him leave. I want him here and he wants to be here. Aron you are my best friend! You have a place in my heart that no one could fill and I mean no one!"

"Then why has everything changed then?"

"Because your making it seem like it has! I don't think anything is different! I still talk to you like I always have and I act the same way I always have!"

"Your not going to see how different you are Mel. The only reason I hung out with her is because I felt like I needed someone who could fill the spot that you left me with."

"Aron I didn't leave you..I'm sorry please-"

"Just stop, I can't deal with this right now. I have to go."

"Aron wait, please!" But he didn't even look back, he got in his car and left. Have I really been so distant from him? Have I left hime out because I'm with Harry? How could I make him feel as if I left him? I could never do that, he's my best friend. 

My chest is starting to get ight and I feel as if I'm losing my breathe and I don't think it's because of the cancer. It's because my heart is breaking, I'm losing my best friend and I didn't even know it until now. I'm now on my knee's crying and trying to catch the breathe that has left my body, but it doesn't seem to want to come back. 

This hurts, this pain of losing a best friend is something I don't want anyone to feel. Aron is my best friend, but so is Harry and losing him would be worse. But Aron is the best friend I've had forever and he has a spot in my heart that not even Harry could feel just because Aron and Harry are so different. They are both my best friends but in different ways. 

I can't lose Aron, but I feel as if I already have and that it's all my fault.

Aron no don't leave!!!! Ahhhh sorry guys but i've had this part in mind for a while and it had to happen, but don't say good bye to Aron forever because he may come back! Not saying when but it's possible! Anyways did you like the chapter?? And how about the new cover ? My friend Kearia made it for me! The new cover for my other fanfiction Fall in New York was made by my friend Selena and go and checkout my instagram @__narryislove__ ( with two underscores on both ends) to see the video edit she made for Fall in New York! It's beautiful! Anyways, I love you all so so so much!! xxx