If I Awake

Chapter 14

"What's wrong? Are you okay?" He says nervously.

"I know this isn't sex, but I'm still nervous. I've never done anything like this before and I don't know why I'm nervous because we're not having sex so I mean, I don't know what I mean." 

"It normal to be nervous with your first, everything. First kiss, first oral, losing your virginity. And if your not ready for this we don't have to do it, you know we don't." He says.

"I know, but I want to I just don't know what to think at the moment."

"I could always just tease you for a bit and then see how you feel?" He smirks.

"Alright." I smile back and he begins to kiss my neck, leaving a trails from my earlobe to my collar bone. He's being gental but in a way he's not, the way he's griping my body brings a heat in the pit of my stomach. I really shouldn't fight this urge to feel this way, that's what I've been doing. Fighting my teenage hormones, fighting the way Harry makes me feel. 

"Okay Harry."

"You sure?" He asks.

"Yes, before I change my mind or get nervous again." Harry lays on his side next to me and slowley slides his hand into my pajama pants and underwear. Then he slowey slides one finger in me and begins to pump slowely. 

I know my face is blood red because I'm embaressed by my reaction of the way this feels. Harry smiles and not a HA-HA smile. A smile that says I still look beautiful to him and that I shouldn't be embaressed. He continues and I moan, which makes me even more embaressed because I didn't even mean to moan. 

Harry kisses me from my lips to my neck, cheek and collar bone, he moves his fingures up to my clit and begins to rub it fast. It sends me into over drive by the way it feels, my bac begins to arch and it's like my whole body is on fire and then all at once it's like my body explodes. I let out a very loud moan, well I felt like I yelled it but I was trying not to yell. Seeing how I've never felt this before it was sort of hard for me.

Harry pulls his hand out from my pants and whips his fingers on the blankets, he then pulls me into his arms and holds me and kisses me.

"So?" He asks.

"What?"

"Did you enjoy it?" He smiles and I feel my cheeks flush.

"I did."

"I could tell you enjoyed it." He smirks.

"Shut up that was embaressing!" I say with a laugh while covering my face.

"Why?"

"Cause I feel like I looked like an idiot."

"No you didn't babe, you looked beautiful when you got and during. I had to keep myself getting off just from seeing you get off." He says, that actually makes me feel better for some reason but I know my cheeks are still red.

"So when can I do things to you?"

"Tonight was your night, I want to make you feel like this a few more times before you do anything to me."

"What? Why?"

"Because, you need to feel like you just did more than I do." He says.

"How many girls have you been with?"

"What?"

"How many girls have you been with like sexually?" I say.

"Three."

"Three? Your lying."

"I'm not, I lost my virginity at 16 to a girl I was dating at the time and then two girls after her. But don't go thinking I used them or anything one girl i really liked but she dated me for a couple months, had sex with me then broke up with me. She did it to piss off her ex. Then the other girl we were friends and stuff and she came over one night drunk and upset and then after that night we dated for a bit but it didn't feel right dating someone who I was real good friends with."