It's been a week since the night when Aron was here and the fight happened. And when he said he loved me, it's not that I don't love Aron. It's just I don't love him as anymore than a best friend, I can't see myslef loving him any more than that.
I love Harry.
God how I love him.
The way he smiles, his laugh, how he runs his fingers through his hair. His jokes that aren't that funny but make him laugh really hard, the way he laughs is something so beautiful in itself. His eyes sqwint and his head falls from laughing so hard and the harder he laughs, the less sounds comes from his mouth. He's so adorable, God he's so beautiful.
The way he holds me, the way he helps me bathe or get in and out of bed when I'm in pain. The way he kisses me, his lips are so soft and he kisses so gentle unless he knows you want him to kiss you harder. And you don't even have to tell him when you want him to be rougher, it's like he can tell somehow.
My parents love him and he loves my parents, I mean they have never acted like they just met almost 7 months ago. They act as if they have known each other forever and I love that.
7 months? Has it really been that long? Wow, it's like time has flew by since I met Harry. No we're not perfect, we have our fights. Nothing to bad, sometimes it's over small things like him leaving the toilet seat up and me leaving dirty dishes in my room for days which he can't stand.
But we've had our big fights, I won't lie about that. Sometimes he makes me wanna pull out whats left of my hair but then again I just wanna grab him and kiss him. We don't fight over sex, mostly because we still haven't had sex. Which is okay, I understand that he wants to wait until I'm better and by better I mean off chemo and not getting sick every time I move around to much.
We do other things, so it's all okay. He takes me out on dates some times, he surprises me when he comes home from work somedays by saying " I'm taking you out for dinner babe." It's so sweet, because some times he just takes me to the park where he has sat up a little dinner for us and it's so amazingly sweet.
Or sometimes we just go for a drive and lay out somewhere under the stars. I love it.
I love him.
God, I love him.
"Babe, you alright?"
"Yeah I'm okay, why do you ask?"
"Because your just sitting there, smiling." Harry says as he rubs my cheek with his thumb.
"I'm okay, I'm just thinking."
"About?"
"You." I say and he smiles.
"What about me?"
"How bad your feet smell." Harry laughs and brings his foot up to his nose and tries to sniff it.
"They don't smell!" He laughs.
"Ha-Ha, I was joking babe, I was just thinking about how it's already been 7 months that we've been together and how I really love you."
"I really love you too Melanie, but 7 months with you isn't long enough."
"Oh it isn't?"
"No it's not, not time with you will be long enough."
"Okay Eward Cullin." I laugh.
"I'm serious though babe, forever wouldn't be long enough with you babe. Yeah twilight may have said that but I'm truely serious babe."
"We may not get forever though Harry."
"Yes we will, you will get the forever you've always wanted and the forever you deserve. Whether it's with me or someone else, you'll get it." He says and I feel my eye's water.
"I want it with you."
"Then you'll have it with me, as long as you don't give up." I say and he pulls me onto his lap.
"I won't give up on you Harry."
"I didn't mean me babe." His face goes sad and that's when I realize what he meant. He means he doesn't want me to give up on life.
"Harry.."
"No babe, if you want all of those things with me or even without me. You can't give up on life. You can't think that you'll die or whatever goes through your mind about that subject. You can't think like that because your basically already ending your life when you say your going to die."
"Harry, we're all going to die. I'm just going to die from cancer. It's that simple."
"Damn it Melanie stop it!" He shouts and it takes me by surprise. I'm now off his lap and he's standing over me.
"Harry I just-"
"No, you rememeber how you promised me to not speak or think like that? Your not going to be happy if you continue to to that! And all I want is you to be happy Melanie."
"I'm sorry. And I am happy I swear. I didn't even know what happiness was until you. You make me feel more alive than anyone ever has in my entire life. Harry, you've given me a chance at life."
"I just want you to stop thinking like that and be positive about it. Atleast while I'm around."
"I can do that, I can try babe. Sometimes I can't help it, it just slips out before I can stop it. But I'll try babe I'm so sorry."
"Thank you love and stop apologizing, your making me feel like an animal for yelling." He smiles and puts me back on his lap when he sits down.
"You are an animal." I tease and he smiles and placeshis hand on my cheek.
"Are you trying to start something babe?"
"Possibly, depending on if your going to finish it or not." I tease.
"Oh babe, you know I always finsish and I can say the same for you." He winks and kisses me.
"You two are gross, get a room." My dad says as he walks through the living room and into the kitchen.
"Sorry dad!"
"Ya know if your going to be dirty with each other you should probably be better at it." He says as he pokes his head around the corner from the kitchen.
"Dad!" I yell and he laughs and I look over at Harry who's face is red, he should be used to my dad saying this stuff. Everytime he catches us he saysing something like that, Harry gets embarrassed but tries to laugh about it.
As we're sitting and watching TV the house phone rings, I ignore it knowing dad will answer. Which he does, but then I hear the sound in his voice change. I hear his breathing pick up and now I'm on my feet and racing into the kitchen and Harry following behind not knowing why I'm running in here.
I look at dad who just hung up the phone and now has his arms pushing on the counter and his head down. The only sound we hear is my dad crying and I don't even know why.
"Dad? Dad, what's wrong?" He looks up and at me, he tries to speak but no words come out.
"Melanie.....it's..... Melanie it's your mom." I stand there frozen, I can't move, I can't speak. I feel harry wrap his arms around me.
"John, John what happened?"
"Karen..she...she was in an accident leaving work." I feel like my heart just feel out of my chest, it's as if my legs have turned into noodles because I find myself on the ground and Harry trying to picke me up. What the hell is happening? I can't breathe.
Hey guys! Sorry this chapter is crappy! I needed to update though! I hope you all are enjoying the story so far! By the way I had to make a new intagram because my other ,, well I honestly don't know what happened to it. Instagram won't respond to me about it either but my new one is @nxrryislove if you wanna follow and my twitter in the same it's still @_narryislove_ if you wanna follow! I love you guys though and thank you all so much for the reads! Happy new years!! XXXX
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