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I watched his body shiver as multiple tears rolled down his already glistening cheeks. It hurt so much to see my baby cry. I killed him, my poor joonie wanted to live. I couldn't bear the pain as I let out a gasp and closed my eyes.
"Namjoon-oon-n.."
My voice failed in trying to gain attention as Namjoon had gone back to reading. I cursed that damn letter as I, myself read further, not knowing why. I had already read that shit. I guess this all made me stupid.
MIN YOONGI. a suicidal man.
JUNG HOSEOK. a heartbroken man.
PARK JIMIN. a selfless man.
KIM NAMJOON. a tired man.
I stopped reading because I had read his name aloud but also because I saw his grip on the paper tighten as he looked up at the ceiling, trying to stop the tears from flowing. I bit my trembling lip. I looked at him in pity as I was about to look away, his cold eyes coming in contact to mine.
"I-I simpl-ly was tired, I needed re-est, no-ot the d-d-dea-at-"
Then a silence surrounded us. Well, not really. The sounds our lips made against each other were the only thing hearable. I couldn't take it. He kept crying, saying stuff that broke my non-beating heart. I just felt like this was the only way to comfort. Both of us.
His wet cheeks and tears collided against my wet cheeks and tears as our lips fought and fought. The paper was long gone from his hands as he pushed me towards him as I straddled him, both of us crying while kissing the emotions out. He was so harsh, kissing me harder each time I showed some resistance, I felt like I was out of breath even though I never even breathed in the first place.
I pulled away as I lost the strength to hold my head up, my forehead hit his shoulder as his arms wrapped around my body and pushed me even closer to his body, crying into my neck.
"I didn't want-t to-o.."
I pecked his shoulder as another tear of mine rolled down my cheeks, landing on his shoulder, just to roll down his back. I sat up so my eyes met his closed ones, my still heart making a small jump as I tried to hold up my heavy body. My hands made their way up to his face, wiping his tears away as my body shook by the touch.
