My Wicked Clumsy Girl

Manila.2

My tears keep falling as I packed my bags gustuhin ko man makausap si Jenine ayoko naman dagdagan pa ang isipin nya at nararamdaman nya since few months after graduation na-hospital ulit ang mama nya.

Part of me wants to take back what I said but bigger part of me really wants to do this, I don't have solid plans to be honest I have some savings but I know it will never be enough to support myself lalo na kung babalik ako sa pag-aaral.

pagbaba ko ng hagdan nakita ko ang mom umiiyak sya,patakbo akong yumakap sa kanya "mom I am very sorry" bulong ko sa kanya it pains me so much na umabot kami ni Dad sa ganito

"hush anak...maaayos natin ito" hinaplos nya ang likod ko while my dad is sitting in the chair reading some news paper kung binabasa nya nga yun,only he can tell "Jaime please stop this" baling nya sa dad

"ang anak mo ang my gustong umalis" walang lingon na sagot ng dad "I never asked her to leave the house nor our lives but she said she can take care of herself maybe it's the right to let her swim in the ocean alone"

gusto ko sya sagutin but I know it will just create more arguments and more wounds between me and my parents,I still respect them and dad is right he never asked me to leave what he don't understand is his asking my whole life...na parang servant nila ako kesa anak.

binuklat nya ang news paper "you got 5 years Manila if you did not prove anything at all pupulitin kita saang lupalop ka man nandun at susundin mo lahat ng gusto ko"

"Jaime for once please—-"

pa-galit na tinupi ng dad ang news paper "Oh Melanie stop tolerating your daughter,you never back her up before so why now? we both know what's best for her but look at her" turo nya sa akin and all I see in him is anger "willing to give up everything we build for her para anu?" nakakalokong ngumiti ang dad "you're my only daughter but you keep on failing me" yun lang at nag-walk out na ang dad.

naiiyak ako ang bigat ng loob ko and my mom give me a sorry look and hugged once more

"Do you have wine?" tanong ni Pyrus sa akin, andito na kami sa condo ko after ko umiyak at mahimasmasan I told her my address and she brought me home and even insisted na samahan ako hanggang sa unit ko.

"ye-yes I think I have red wine" tumayo ako para kunin sa cup board ang wine actually regalo pa ito ng company sa amin last christmas,naglabas ako ng ordinary glass since wala naman ako wine glass bumalik ako sa sala kung saan sya kumportableng naka-upo "you look very different in person Ma'am" hindi ko napigilan i-comment dahil maganda sya sa picture pero sa personal she look like a Demi-God.

she took the bottle from me and opened it at nilagayan ang mga baso "because those pictures are slightly edited,para kahit panu may privacy pa rin kami" nakangiting inabot nya yung isa sa akin "drink up it will ease anu man yung nararamdaman mo"

I sip and kept quite dahil hindi ko naman alam kung anung sasabihin ko sa kanya and she kinda intimidating me "Ma'am salamat po pala" pambasag ko sa katahimikan sa pagitan namin

"C'mon Manila drop the Ma'am and po I think we are on the same age" she smile at me "so tell me what happen? trouble in paradise?"

yumuko ako and took a sip again sa wine ko "I miss someone who doesn't give a d*mn about me"

"hhhmmmnn"

"I thought we had something but after tonight i am very sure that I am nothing to her" ininom ko lahat ng wine sa baso ko at nagsalin pa ulit ako pakiramdam ko bawat inom ko gumagaan yung pakiramdam ko