My Wicked Clumsy Girl

Nicolie

Nagpupuyos ang damdamin ko sa ginagawa ni Mom and I just can't let it pass na parang ok ang lahat,I need to let it all out before kung anu ang magawa ko. Pagdating ko sa building ng Adriano walang dalawang isip na pumasok ako sa office nya "Mom I really need to talk to you" panimula ko and I don't care kung sinong pilato ang ka-meeting nya ngayon, she was about to say something yet in the end she decide to talk to me first at sinabihan ang kausap nya na sya na lang pupunta sa department nya.

"Mom please" umpisa ko ng makaalis ang kausap nya "I want my last name to be change to Yuzon".

And she doesn't take it seriously, I can see the amusement in her eyes and that playful twitch of her lips "Nicolie are you truly out of your mind?".

"No, but I want to have a control in my life not some kind of old testament will rule me, isa pa Rhu will take over isn't it? so I have no stand with the family" I answered bago ako pabagsak na naupo sa upuan sa harap ng lamesa nya "And what the heck mom you removed Khea to her network? why?".

"You want war,simple I will give to you" she said in her cold tone "plus both you and Rhubarb will take over whatever that is beyond my governance".

Suddenly I feel tired "Mom we both know that Rhubarb is more than ready to take your place and I just really want to know the truth,I am not going to do something that will ruin our family".

"But you will..." she said calmly.

"And what's with you and Ila's family?".

She sigh "Nico why are you doing all this? what is your main purpose?changing your last name will not prove you anything anak,you are Adriano by blood not just by name".

I sigh "Mom I just want to move on and have a better future and I cannot do that if I keep asking about the past".

"Nico I hate to do this but you leave me no choice,Billy phoned me and I will do everything just to bring down Khea and soon Manila too if that's the only way to make you choose us".

"What!?!?!?" natataranta ako na naririnig ko aaminin ko natakot ako hindi para sa akin kundi para kay Manila,I know my mom.

"You heard me right—"

"Now you will—-"

"I will give Khea a placement in the network and I will give your freedom to live the life you want" putol nya sa anu man sasabihin ko,part of me wants to say no and part of me wants to jump in quickly isn't it what I want...freedom...

"Yes bab masusundo kita later" I called her dahil yesterday hindi kami nagkaintindihan and she end up going home by taxi at ako naman napanis sa paghihintay sa office which leads to a minor tampuhan "Practice lang naman today ng graduation then I'll be done before your out".

"Bab kumain ka ba?" she sweetly asked.

"Yup,I did...cookies" sabay tawa she doesn't like when I skip meals "but I want to have a good dinner later" I bit my lips "and a good dessert" sadyang pina-husky ko yung boses ko sa huling sinabi ko.

She cleared her throat na parang may bumara dito na kung anu "Bab...I would love that" pabulong na sagot nya.

"Bakit ka bumubulong?" tukso ko sa kanya.

"Eeehhhh kasi naman" I know she is blushing kahit di ko sya nakikita "basta" dagdag nya pa.

Natatawang nag-paalam ako sa kanya at tinapos ang tawag. The days past na halos hindi ko napapansin at ngayon nga malapit na ang graduation ko, nangingiti ako kasi up until now hindi alam ng parents ko that I will receive the highest award in my batch.

"Someone's in a good mood" I know who is talking kaya tumigil ako sa paglalakad at humarap sa pinanggalingan ng boses.

"Khea kumusta?" I feel awkward yet lumapit ako at nagbeso sa kanya "No work?" really Nico? no work? pinagtatawanan akonng isip ko sa nasabi ko.

"I'm fine and yes to your second question" she smiled at me "can we talk?".

"Y-yes...oo naman" sagot ko bago kami pumasok sa isang empty na classroom.

"Nico is it really over? am I really just someone you knew?" bakas sa mukha nya ang lungkot "what happen to our plan...to your plan? bakit parang everything we have just falls apart?".

I sigh,maybe it is better for her to just simply hate me dahil totoo naman,I never intend to fall for Ila yet I did and I am a person who is not really good with explaining "Khea I did love you—".

"Then where did it goes?" putol nya sa akin her voice is a little bit shaky na parang anytime she will just breakdown.

"I thought it was...but when I met her—".

"Then what?you just let that love for me slip away?".

"I'm sorry but it is better this way" because maybe that kind of love is because we are related gusto ko idugtong pero hindi ko magawa dahil sa huli I decided to choose my family and be with Ila.

"For you" puno nang pagtatampong sagot nya "Nico can't you see how your family can turns table na kahit sarili mong feeling nagawa nilang baguhin?for all you know that girl was just a set up".

"No!!!" hindi ko napigilan mag-taas ng boses "Don't you dare say something like that about Manila,you don't know her" pinilit ko kumalma and keep reminding myself na may atraso ang pamilya ko sa kanya.

"Why Nico? afraid to know the truth—".

"There is nothing to be afraid of,isa pa I will marry her—".

"What???? are you actually out of your mind?!??!?" she cut me off bago sya lumapit sa akin at siniil ako ng halik but never did I respond,I slowly push her away. Pain is written on her face "Mahal mo ba sya?".

I just nod, ayoko ng sumagot pa dahil alam ko din kung panu masaktan.

"Nico I wish that I never met you" she told me in a very cold voice "You never deserved me,infact you never deserved happiness at all".

"Khea really? when you're the one who left did I wish something bad for you? maybe my mother is right about you"puno ng tampong sagot ko sa kanya.

"Ha! Your mother is a monster a cold hearted b*tch hidding in a gorgeous face!".

That's it! I grab her "Pinagpapasensyahan kita but you never talk about my mother that way! my family feed you and your family! gives you education mula sa lolo mo hanggang sayo! my family was torn apart dahil sa ama mo! yet you have a job because of my family so don't you ever talk about being heartless not when you don't know nothing at all" bago pabalya ko syang binitawan.

Halatang hindi sya makapaniwala sa narinig mula sa akin, hindi ko rin naman gusto na umabot kami sa ganito but she can't say something like that sa family ko.

"Yeah all about the charity and nobelity that your family serves mine..." she said ng makabawi sya "Alam ko naman why your mom never liked me sino nga naman ang gugusto sa isang babaeng produkto lang ng charity works ng pamilya nya na kung hindi pa naging artista—".

"Khea just stop" pinutol ko na sya sa anu mang sasabihin nya pa "just be greatful with what you have right now and in time you will forget about me".

"I am not like you Nico" she force a smile "Do you know your mom talk to Manila and ask her to marry you?".

Kunot noo akong tumingin sa kanya,I am trying to figure out if she is telling the truth or not.

"Even her family talk to her,persuave her to marry you" she look at me na parang naaawa sya sa akin "all for the power and money Nico" then she smile yung tipo nang ngiti na nakikisimpatya "I hope the girl really loves you and sana hindi pangteleserye ang lovestory nyo...scripted,try to check your cctv footage baka nabubulagan ka lang" that's her last word bago nya ako iniwan mag-isa.

My hearts start pounding and I felt a sharp pain in my chest...is it really possible that all along I thought she is pure and innocent? Is everything we have is because of manipulation.