the inner workings of my mind and soul.

forever apart

i want to give you my heart. i want you to have me. i want you to know the deep dark corners of my soul. i want you. but you, you aren't here. I watch you slowly move away from you. i feel myself slip away because love, you are me. i know thats not how it works but it's true. I don't want to know who i am without you. i don't want to know how to live without you, but i have to. i watched you leave. i felt my heart break. one part is with you. the other is all the remains in me. i want you to know me. i want you but i can't have you. i can't because you aren't here. why can't you be here? why do I have to make memories without you. why do I have to meet people i never would have if you were here. why can't you just be here?! i need you here. i need you. i don't care if you see me or save me but i need you. i need you in my life. i need you to wake me up. i need you to tease me to make me laugh. i need you! damn it! i need you. i will always need you. i need you to come back to me. please come back to me. please heal my heart make me whole. i can't handle being broken. i can't keep living with this constant ache. i need you to ease the ache. to tell me it will be okay. please!!!! please tell me it will be okay. just, tell me..." my heart broke. i broke. i know that we broke too and that we will never ever go back to where we were. because life only moves forwards; but i still need you. i will always need you. my broken heart will always call out to you and i know you will always answer.