“i am so done with surprises!!!” she screamed. “they have never once in my life been a good thing and i am done with them. no more surprises!” she yelled. “not from you, not from other people, not from anyone!!!!!! no more surprises!” she sobbed doubling over “no more.” she cried “i can't handle anymore surprises. i can't” she said as a sob came raging through her. “no more. please tell me you won't surprise me. don't lie to me don't hurt yourself. don't die suddenly out of nowhere! just-” another sob interrupted her, “dont surprise me. don't! i don't care how wonderful the surprise might be. i don't want it i don't want to be blindsided! so don't!” she screamed as the tears poured down her cheeks like rain. “don't surprise me!!” with that she stopped, the pain became too much and all she could do was let it tear her apart. she didn't hold back any part of herself. all her past hurts came pounding back at once like a wrecking ball that shattered her last hold on anything. she cried, she sobbed, she screamed until she had no voice, she let it all out and he just held her. he knew he could do nothing else so he simply held her. he was just there and that's all she needed. just someone to be there to hold her close through it all.
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the inner workings of my mind and soul.
De Todothis is literally just a collage of everything I have written placed in one place with photos and music tied into it.
