the inner workings of my mind and soul.

in the future

“you just make it look so easy.” he finished
“easy?” she repeated her voice dripping with sarcasm. “nothing about this is easy!” she flung her arms out indicating everything in its entirety. “nothing! I feel like it takes everything in me to live. it takes everything to do what I want to do on top of what I have to do. I have to work, I have to have money, a house, a car supposedly I'm supposed to have children since I already have a husband. I'm supposed to have the house clean, the laundry washed, the food cooked and able to eat!” she gives an exasperated sigh “I know,” he whispers “I know and I know I don't make that any easier. I don't help you with anything. I don't help with cooking or laundry or cleaning. I don't help relieve the stress and pressures of life and I'm sorry. I'm sorry you are so stressed, I'm sorry you feel you are under so much pressure. I'm sorry. I'm sorry people and society are telling you “you must bear children” because love I know how you feel about that. I hope I haven't made you feel like that because I am okay with it being you and me. you are all I want you have always been all I have ever wanted. I want you in my life. my crazy, reckless, beautiful, enchanting, magnificent wife. I want you only. because you have shown me so much, my love.” he pauses pulling his wife to her spot on his chest listening to his heart. “you have given me everything I could ever hope to have and beyond because that's who you are. I love who you are. I love that you scream at me when you are stressed and frustrated to the point of tears. I love that you calm down instantly when my arms are around you and your head is on my chest listening to my heartbeat. I love that my arms and heartbeat make you feel okay. I love that you feel okay with me, that you are comfortable enough with me to let your guard down. I love that you have never looked more beautiful than each moment i see you. I love that you make me nervous when you walk in the room and look at me with these.” he removes her head from his chest with his hands firmly and gently placed on either side of her face. “incredibly beautiful hazel eyes.” he wipes her tears away and with it all her worries. "i am going to help you." he promises. " i am not going to let you break under the stress of doing everything alone ever again. i am going to help with the laundry, cleaning, the dishes and majorly with work and money. that is where i am going to help you the most because i know..." he looks down at his shoes for a moment before pulling his eyes up to hers. "i know that it stresses you out more than the rest and that you stress as much as you do because of me. i am changing that tomorrow. tonight i am going to work while you rest. you can help me by telling me where everything is, where everything goes and how to run a few things. basically by teaching me everything you know." he laughs shyly and she laughs with him. "can you?" he asks, looking so sincere that she knew by that look and the steadiness of his heart beat he was serious. he wasn't going to let her go through any of this alone, he wasn't going to let her break alone and if she did he would be there to put her back together, so she smiles. "yes my love." she whispers while light gleams in her eyes, "yes i can."