The Roommates (Louis Tomlinson.)

Trips To See You

'Hey Cassidy.' Louis said, making me frozen in my place. What the hell is he doing here?

'This is Louis?' Gen asked even though she knows who he is from what she said. Either she's acting like she didn't know or she genuinely got confused which is beyond me because we were talking about it a few seconds ago.

'Yeah.' I whisper, looking at Louis. Is that why he asked where I was going? So he could come? I know that I wished that he would but I never actually though he would come.

'Can I talk to you for a second?' He asks, gesturing to the side.

'I don't-' I started to say but then cut off by Gen, 'Yes she can.' She pushed me off to the side and smiled as Louis chuckled at her. I followed him to a spot where no one was around to hear. But not too far away from Gen.

'What are you doing here?' I ask, gaping at the sight of him actually being in front of me.

'You said that it's going to take a lot more than apologising to make it up to you, so I called Harry than booked a flight. I was actually on one of your flights, from England. Then I took a flight from Italy, I just got in today.' He shrugged.

'But why?' I asked, 'why did you come?'

'Because Cassidy, I realised his much I affected you and I know that it was going to take more than just talking. And I wanted to do it before I went on tour to prove to you that I could actually make up for being an asshole all this time. And I know I wouldn't have enough time to prove it when you got home so, I came here. And Cassidy, you have to hear me out and give me a chance because there's no where you can go either. I really want to make this work.' He says, grabbing my arm. I will admit, it was honourable for making the trip over here but I'm still pissed. I missed his touch as well. Its been so long but I have to remember to keep my distance but I fall to hard again.

'Louis,' I start, brushing his hand off of me, 'I know that you probably did a lot to get here but remember it's going to take more than talking for me to forgive you again. You said it yourself.' I start to step away to get away from him before we have another heart to heart conversation like we did before I left.

'Cassidy, please. I'm trying here. I promise I will do everything it takes just for you to be around me again.' He begs. He's actually pleading. Is he really this serious about this? I never thought that he would be as serious as I was but he is.

'Louis,' I sigh, 'you don't have to do anything because I'm right here.' I smile before walking off. I did want him to get his hopes up because I'm willing to make this work too. Plus the fact that he didn't have to do anything for me to be around him because I'm already around him. All the time.

I'm getting a headache from all that's spinning. It was only a week ago after six months of starting to talk to Louis again. I miss him so much it hurts. I just want to wrap my arms around him and forgive him but I can't do that. I would seem weak and just forgive him instantly for that painful half year. It was a terrible time in my life. I actually didn't date anyone after him. After Carter, I immediately went to Louis. Shocker right? I was considered a whore still to this day. It's funny because they hated me with Louis but when we broke up, they wanted us back together. I honestly don't get the directioner fandom. Freaking crazy people. I'm not judging anyone because they are sweet to also look after the boys that way but they can be vicious and ruthless fans. It's scary.

'What did he say?!' Gen bounced as soon as I walked up to her.

'He just said stuff.' I shrugged off, picking up a brick.

'What kind of stuff?' She urges, taking some cement mix and plopping it into a brick.

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I stand in the foggy mirror with a towel wrapped around my slender body. I stare at myself in the mirror, focusing on all my features. I have been thinking about Louis all day and whenever I would get a glance at him he would always be looking so I would turn away as fast as I could and pretend I didn't see him. Even though I may have made that mistake at least 11 times. I can't help but listen to music all the time. Which makes me think of him constantly. I know when every girl says, I always find a piece of you in every song I listen to, but it's hard not to because most songs in the world are love songs which doesn't help. I even think of his ears when I listen to his songs. I mean, really? His ears? I could at least think of his pupils that dilate whenever we would kiss. Whenever he would look at me in the eyes and I knew it was love and lust. I knew whenever he would look at me, I would get weak knees and butterflies would erupt my stomach. I always knew I wasn't good enough for him. He was too perfect for me.