If Only I Were You

Ch.35

Poem/Quote of the day:

Silence is the best answer to a fool

Chapter Thirty Five:

AFEERAH'S P.O.V

I locked the door twice before slumping on the soft bed.

Why is he complicating everything now? After I forgot everything. After I left the past in the past.

Sahal made everything worse. My childhood feelings were coming back to haunt me, the childhood feelings Ayman made me forget.

It was such a bad idea coming back here. My life belonged with Ayman, without all of these reborn feelings.

It was my pregnancy hormones, I was just confused right now.

I tore open the envelope I was given a while ago and started reading slowly, desperate to get Sahal out of my mind.

Afeerah, if you're reading this, it must mean I'm dead and you haven't come back to see me after these years.

I'm sorry, I hope you might someday forgive me for leaving you to suffer, I leave everything to you even though I know it won't change the fact that I wasn't there throughout your life. I want you to know that I love you and I wish that before I die, we meet even once.

I know I'm not in the right place to ask but I heard about you and Sahal, I know you two love each other.
Marry Sahal, make him happy.

Different set of tears left my eyes and I couldn't read the rest of the letter. I just couldn't.

It was too late. It hurt to know that I couldn't fulfill my fathers wishes. I wanted Sahal to be happy but I knew I couldn't be the one to make him happy.

I had moved on and I desperately wanted him to, I couldn't bring him happiness after I was already married and expecting my first child.

sahal and I just werent meant to be.

I thought it was all a childish game and that I had forgotten it but coming back to this house made me unsure of my feelings.

Everything was jumbled up and I didn't know what to do, it was a bad idea to come. I shouldn't have.

A hard knock was heard on my door. I expected to see Sahal or maybe Ayman but when I opened the door, I came face to face with Sahla.

"What do you want?" I think I should be asking her that but she was the one who asked.

"What do you mean?" I didn't have time for her rubbish right now.

"Why don't you just fucking leave? Having almost everything father had doesn't change the fact that you're still a maid Afeerah. Just go!" She steps into the room and I took a few steps back.

I had tried my ultimate best to push back everything of the past, but those words of hers peeled the almost healed wounds. All the things she made me go through.

All the pain, at a time it was so unbearable I wanted to end my life, I wanted to vanish from this world.

Because of Sahla Othman Lukman. The woman who made my life a living hell, the woman who made it her ultimate goal to ruin everything for me. That much was clear but one thing I didn't know was; why?

Why?

"Why do you hate me so much?" I asked without even knowing it.

She looked taken aback by the question and for a moment she looked nervous and unsure. A sight of Sahla I had never seen till this day.

But it was only for a few seconds because she recovered. "Why? Because I hate you. I hate you because you're a filthy maid that doesn't deserve anything. You're a gold digger and a worthless piece of trash. I hate you because you think you're perfect just because you were given daddy's things. I hate you because you chose no one but my brother to hurt." She says all in one breath.

I ignored her last sentence even though it surprised me that she cared about Sahal.

I never hated Sahla. I only pitied her but I didn't hate her up until now.

Right now unexplainable things clouded my mind but I knew I have never ever been angry at Sahla like I was at her now. All the feelings I had restrained and kept in my heart towards her were now haywire and I felt nothing but hatred towards her.

Sahal and everything else were kept out of my mind. My eyes held hers captive and I was surprised she didn't talk.

I then decided that I didn't come here because of my father's death, no. I came her for revenge.

I wanted revenge on everything she had done to me and I was going to make sure I got it.

The tables had really turned now and i was taking charge.

"You have 24hours to leave my house." I said, eyes unwavering and cold.

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