I'm sorry I hurt you it wasn't meant to be. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you the way I should have. I'm sorry I truly am. I can't live with out you even if I tried. Your my best friend a girl could ever have! I swear. I know one day you'll leave and I don't want you to go....
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I try to be happy I swear I do! I try to have a smile on my face and seem like everything's okay.... but it's not, nothing is. I try to live each day but I can't. I just can't simple as that. I know I have to stay here but I just can't bare it! I hate this world, this place..... I know one day I'll leave but I wonder when?
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"Family is everything man. God sent you these people for a reason."
Then why did mine leave?
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Just an average girl She always wore a smile
She was cheerful and happy for a shot while
But now she's older and things are getting colder
Life's not what she thought she wished someone had told her
She told you she was down but you let it slip by
So from then on she kept it on the inside
She told herself she was alright but she was telling white lies
Can't you tell look at her dull eyes
Tried to stop herself from crying almost every night
But she knew there was no chance of feeling alright
Summer came by, all she wore was long sleeves
'cause those cuts on her wrists were bleeding through you see
She knew she was depressed,
She carried on like a soldier with a battle wound
Bleeding out from every cut her body consumed
She had no friends at school all alone she sat
And if someone were to notice she would blame the dog
But those cuts on her wrist they were no mistake
But no one cared enough to save her from this self hate
Things were going down never really up
Now here she is stuck in this stupid rut...
She knew exactly what she had to do next
She wrote a letter with her hands shaking wild
"look at me now are you proud of your precious child?"
But she knew her parents weren't the ones to blame
It was the world that should bow down its head in shame
"I'm sorry mom but this world is just not my place
I've tried so hard to fix this and fit in
I've come to realize this world is full of sin
There's nothing for me here I'm just a waste of space
I've got no reason to stay here with this awful race
It's a disgrace I was misplaced
Born in the wrong time and the wrong place
It's ok though 'cause you'll see me soon
You'll when your times come just look at the moon
As it shines bright throughout the night
And remember everyone's facing their own fight
But I can't deal with the pain I'm not fighter
You'll make it through the night just hug your pillow tighter
So let the world know that I died in vain
'cause the world around me is the one to blame
And I know in a year you'll forget I'm gone
'cause I'm not really something to be dwelled on
That's what they used tell me, all those kids at school
So I'm going by the law majority rules
My presence on this earth isn't needed any longer
And if anything I hope this makes you stronger
You're the best friend that I ever had
Such a shame I had to make you so very sad
Just remember that you meant everything to me
And to my heart you're the only one who held the key
Now it's time to go I'm running out of space to write
And yes I lost my fight but please just hold on tight
I'm watching over you from the clouds above
I'm sending down the purest and whitest dove
To watch over you and be my helpful eye
So this is it world
Goodbye...
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People think depression is sadness.
People think depression is crying.
People think depression is dressing in black. But people are wrong.
Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotions being numb to lie. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again. Days aren't really days; they are just annoying obstacles needed to be faced. And how do you face them? Through medicine, through drinking, through drugs, through cutting. When your depressed you grasp on anything to help you get through the day. That's what depression is. Not sadness, not tears, it's the overwhelming sense of numbness and desire of anything that can help you make it from one day, to the next.
