Rush

If You Only Knew

Mei

'No Yuzu you're so much more than that..' she looked at me and her face was expressionless, 'I don't think she understands.' I thought.

"Yuzu, you mean more to me than just being my protector, I thought you understood that last night. I don't know how else to convey my feelings to you. I am not leaving. I completely intend to stay with you until I die." I gazed into her eyes, trying to show all of the emotion I could. She looked down, "I don't know Mei, you've said it was okay to love you completely once and you left... I really wouldn't be able to handle it if you left again.."

Tears welled up in my eyes, "Yuzu," was all I said, "I love you Mei, and I can't do this unless you're in this completely I-" I cut her off by pulling her towards me and kissing her, 'I love you, stop doubting it, I'll prove it to you every day i love, but I need you Yuzu, not as my protector but as MY person, you aren't allowed to love anyone else, cause you're mine.'

I pushed my thought into her mind, "Mei I-I just don't know.." taking my t-shirt off I was just in my bra and jeans, I grabbed her hand to place it on my breast, 'Yuzu.' I thought again, I needed her to know how much I wanted to be with her, and giving her all of myself was all I wanted. Placing my hands on her cheeks I looked into her eyes before I leaned forward to kiss her.

She returned the kiss, I deepened it by wrapping my arms around her neck and pulling her closer. I could feel her still doubting me, 'I have to prove it, how do I do that?' I questioned myself, then suddenly I had an idea. 'Yuzu look at me.' I thought as I pulled away, she stood up straight as her still glowing emerald eyes gazed into mine. Focusing I conjured up an image of her and tried to put all of what I felt for her into it,and pushed it into her head.

I watched her eyes go wide, "Mei!" She said while watching the image play out in her head, it was a memory of mine, one of the first after I realized I loved her. "Mei what is this?" I pulled her to in between my legs and trapped her there with them, wrapping my arms around her neck I whispered in her ear, "it's how I see you, Yuzu. I love you, and I mean it, you mean so much more to me than just a protector. You're my everything." She glanced at me as the image went away, "I-I know... I could.. feel how you do.. Mei.. I love you so much."

I pulled her towards me to kiss her, 'finally you believe me.. dummy.' She chuckled in her throat, pulling away. "Wait Yuzu.. did you just say you could feel how I feel about you?" She nodded at me, "yeah, when you showed me that image I could feel how you felt in that moment."

"We really need to talk to mother about this.. last night it was only memories and thoughts, now its emotions.. this is interesting, Yuzu, let's see what else we can do." I said to her, I could feel our connection grow the more we were around each other. She chuckled again, "what's so funny?" I asked.

"Oh nothing, I just remembered something. I'm going to shower, then we can make some food, how's that sound?" I was looking down trying to figure out what she could have remembered that she found so funny when I heard a, 'Mei? Look up for a sec?'

Looking up my face turned bright red, I could feel my face heat up at I took in the sight of her shirtless and nearly fell off the sink where she sat me. She quickly was by my side pinning me to the wall behind the sink.

'Mercy already damn it!' I thought earning a grin from her, "that's what I was laughing about, how much you seem like you want to have me, Mei."

I tried my best to not look at her as a thought crossed my mind, 'if I had my way..' she looked into me eyes, "if you had your way what Mei?" I blushed and realized I had to work on hiding my thoughts better, I didn't want to force Yuzu into anything, "nothing, I'll go so you can shower," jumping off the counter I went to leave but Yuzu grabbed my arm and pulled me back into her.

She wrapped her arms around my body and whispered in my ear, "or you can join me?" Her voice sounded like music to my ears. I felt my face get hot again as she was breathing in my ear, I could feel her pressing our bodies together very close, it drove me nuts. "Ahhh," I gasped, 'damn it, I won't be able to contain myself if she keeps that up,' Just as I was going to give in and join her she let me go, I felt a little disappointed, "I'll be out soon Mei, sorry for going too far." I shuffled out of the bathroom and closed the door.

I leaned against the wall and slid down to the floor, 'if you only knew, Yuzu.. I want to be with you more than anything.. but I'm not going to rush you.' I closed me eyes and let myself fantasize for a while.

Yuzu

I watched Mei leave the bathroom and felt a little disappointed, I had hoped she would join me but it was too soon for her, she just got back after all. I didn't want to scare her away again by pushing her limits. I was in the shower and turning on the water when I heard Mei, I closed my eyes and concentrated on her words. 'If you only knew, Yuzu.. I want to be with you more than anything.. but I'm not going to rush you.' Suddenly an image popped into my head.

I was getting out of the shower wrapping myself in a towel. I went back to the bedroom and found Mei, naked on the bed, "Come here Yuzu, I want to be with you, I need you now, I can't hold out any longer." I dropped my towel slowly and walked towards her as she grabbed my hand and pulled me on top of her. I pulled myself out of Mei's thoughts as I opened my eyes. "She does want me as much as I want her.. hmm, good to know," I said to myself as I finished showering and got out.

I headed to the room to get dressed as I was smiling to myself. I left the room and started cooking the French toast Mei wanted as she was on the couch reading. I finished cooking and we ate together in comfortable silence.