Bullied (A Tal Fishman Fanfiction)

Chapter 20

I woke up the next morning to a loud groan from Tal.  I opened my eyes and looked over at him.  He was laying flat on his back, and I was sprawled out on top of him.  I quickly got off of him since he sounded like he was in pain. 

"Tal?"  I said, kneeling on the bed next to him but not touching him. 

"Eva?"  He said, opening his eyes.

"What's wrong?  Are you hurt?  Did I hurt you?" 

"No..it wasn't you.  I bumped my arm on the headboard when I tried to pull you to me."  

"Oh."

"Please come back.  It's lonely when you're not over here."

"I'm literally right here.  How is it lonely?" I asked him, gently running my fingertips down his arm, making him shiver.

"I feel lonely when you're not close to me..especially after last night."  

"I'm sorry I got you into all this."  I whispered, needing to tell him how I was feeling in some way.

"What is there to be sorry for?"  He asked, looking extremely confused.

"It's my fault that you got hurt.  It's my fault you had team up with Allison."

"It's not your fault.  None of it is.  It was my choice.  I chose to do these things, and I knew there would be some sort of consequences."  He used his good arm to pull me closer to him.  He wrapped that arm around my waist to hold me there, and gently kissed the top of my head.  I pressed my face against his chest and started to cry.  

"It IS my fault though.  It's my fault for everything.  If I would've just said no to you taking me here and stood up to Allison and being a huge wimp..."  He cut me off with,

"Don't say things like that.  You don't deserve what Allison wants to do with you.  You don't deserve to feel that way.  You deserve so much better than that.  You deserve so much better than me."

"What?"  I lifted my face off of his chest to look at him, more tears finding their way down my face.  

"You don't deserve me."

"No..you don't deserve me.  You are an amazing guy who cares for everyone.  You're funny, sweet, and you aren't a selfish snot who only thinks about themselves.  You are so much more than that, and no girl in the world can do anything to deserve you."  I watched as a few tears streamed down his face, and I started to tear up even more at seeing him cry.  He almost never cried.  It was so unusual that my body started shaking with my sobs.  I controlled myself a little more and leaned down to press my lips to his, mine salty with fresh tears.  I wrapped my arms around his neck and tangled my hands into his hair.  He pulled away and pressed his forehead against mine, both of us breathing hard and sobbing.

"I don't deserve you because you're the nicest, most beautiful and smartest girl I've ever met.  You always came back to school the next day even after something difficult had happened to you.  I bullied you for years almost relentlessly, thinking it would save you when all it really did was make you feel even worse about yourself.  I don't deserve you...because I let other people hurt you too when all you needed was a friend and someone who would be there for you.  You needed someone to talk to to be able to get through anything, and you didn't have anyone like that.  I made sure that Andy wouldn't be your friend because I was selfish and if I couldn't be with you, no one could.  It wasn't right of me, especially when all you ever really needed was a friend."  I pressed my face into his neck, a new wave of sobs racking my body.  He had just told me almost everything he had ever regretted over the years.  I slowly took my head from out of his neck, trying not to hurt his arm, untangled my hands from his hair and from around his neck, and traced my fingers over the bandages of his wounds, as carefully and lightly as I could.  I made sure it wouldn't hurt him, but that he could still feel it.  I leaned down and gently placed a kiss to each of the bandages, being as careful as possible.  After I had kissed every one, I looked at his face which was full of surprise.

"I'm sorry about this.  It was my fault no matter what you say.  I was the one who asked you to not let me go, and this happened because of my wishes.  I wished you wouldn't have listened to me and had just defended yourself."

"It was Andy's fault for being there.  He was the one who had actually stabbed me.  If I would've let you go, he would've stabbed you instead.  It was the fact that we were, and are, so close to one another that made him mad and even think about injuring us.  He's going crazy and all he wants is to take you from me and get rid of me forever."

"If he tries to take me away from you, I'm making all hell break loose.  That's pushing it way too far..even more than him stabbing you...and that took it pretty far."  He chuckled lightly, and I imitated his actions, both of us laughing full on after a few seconds.  

"Thank you."  He said once we had calmed down a little.

"No..thank you.  Thank you for helping me find myself..."

To be continued....

A/N:  Hey guys, I'll try to update again tonight..I want to get as many chapters as I can over break before I have to start worrying about finals.  I have time, so I'm going to use it writing chapters.  It's my way of thanking you for over 2K reads, over 100 votes, and making this story soooo close to #1 on several rankings.  Please just go look at the rankings of this story and see why I'm so ecstatic right now.  If we do make it to #1, I'll have to think of something amazing to do. I probably won't do what I've been saying I'll do..I'll try to think of something even better.  If it happens in the next few days, I'll be able to something so much more awesome.  Please continue to help this story reach #1 by voting!! Also, please continue to leave comments.  It makes my day to read about what you guys think of the story so far.  It helps me feel even more inspired to write more and more chapters each day!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! LYASM!! BYESIES!!

p.s..CLIFF HANGER!!  SORRY!!