Jaded /vkook/taekook/

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Trigger Warning

Jungkook's legs burn as he runs up all fifteen stories of Taehyung's building until he gets to the penthouse but he ignores the burn as he runs to Taehyung's door, which is thankfully open.

"Taehyung!" He calls when he gets inside.

He runs through every door in the house until he gets to Taehyung's room where he finds the window open.

He runs over but he's not there either.

"Taehyung!" He yells through the penthouse once more before another crushing feeling goes through him.

The rooftop.

"Please, god no." He says under his breath as be runs back out of the apartment and up the last flight of stairs the lead to the roof.

His legs shake from exertion as he reaches the top but relief rushes through him when he see Taehyung standing near the edge of the building.

His heart drops when he takes an unsteady step forward, if he was drunk he'd probably lose his balance.

"No!" Jungkook screams running and grabbing Taehyung's arm. "Taehyung!"

The silverette looks down at Jungkook in shock.

"Please come down." The younger says feeling tears burning in his eyes, Taehyung doesn't budge when he pulls him. "Come down, Taehyung!"

"Let me go." Taehyung says pushing Jungkook away and making him fall.

Jungkook pushes himself from the ground. "Come away from there, Taehyung. Please, I'm begging you"

"What are you doing here?" The silverette asks with his back to Jungkook.

"I-I'll tell you. But please Taehyung, you have to come down." Jungkook says chocking on his tears as he continues to panic. "Please don't do this."

Taehyung laughs but it's humorless. "Go home, Jungkook. This doesn't concern you."

"What are you doing!" Jungkook shouts trying to grab his arm only for Taehyung to pull it away and step closer to the edge. "No! Please, please."

"You don't know what it's like, Jungkook. No one does, no one ever will." Taehyung says, tears falling from his eyes and blurring the busy road below him.

"Come down, Taehyung and we'll talk about it." The younger says.

"Talk about what!" The silverette snaps turning to him.

Jungkook steps forward, preparing to grab him if he falls.

Taehyung continues. "Why am I supposed to continue living like this? For who?"

"You have so much to live for, Taehyung." Jungkook says, hating how cliché he sounds.

"I don't. The only thing I had to live for I let go. It's not fair, Jungkook. It's not fair that I have to keep going because it's what everyone wants! What about what I want?"

"What do you want?"

"I don't want to be here anymore." Taehyung says chocking on a small sob as he turns his back to Jungkook. "I don't want to be in the spotlight anymore. I just want to be at peace with everything. With myself."

"What about the people who care about you?" Jungkook tries to stall for more time.

"No one cares about me, not truly." Taehyung says.

"Of course people do. What about your fans? All the people that look up to you? O-Or Jin, you're like his brother, a-and me, you may be my boss but you're also my friend." Jungkook says stepping forward nervously, he was afraid of heights.

"Doesn't matter." Taehyung says shaking his head. "It hurts, don't you get that? It hurts from the inside out and I can't figure out how to make it stop."

Jungkook's breath trembles on the way out as he gets closer.

"It's killing me. And I just want to get rid of this pain. Drinking doesn't do it anymore. Smoking doesn't. It just hurts all the time."

"What hurts?" Jungkook asks.

"I don't know." Taehyung laughs but it sounds more like a sob. "And that's why I hate it. I don't even know what hurts anymore, but it won't stop."

Jungkook reaches out and takes Taehyung's hand. "Please, Taehyung."

Taehyung doesn't snatch his arm away. "Do you think I'll go to hell if I kill myself right now?"

Jungkook holds back the sob he wants to release. "I don't know, but I do know something. You want to know what it is?"

Taehyung nods wordlessly.

"Sometimes, it feels like it's the end of the world, and everything's over, and sometimes it feels better to just give up than to keep trying. But when you give up you'll never know what could have been if you kept trying. Maybe, you think you've been your happiest, done your best, made your mark in the world. But maybe you haven't, and this is just the beginning."

Jungkook panics, trying to think of something else to say.

"Remember when I told you that-that you had to find new hope? Remember how I said you changed my life? Well, you may not know it Taehyung but you're changing someone's life, even right now. You may feel like no one needs you, o-or cares about you, but I do. I need you, Taehyung. Not because you're my boss. But because you're my friend. A-And your life is valuable to me. A-And..."

Jungkook runs out of words to say and his breathing is heavy, what is he supposed to say, what is supposed to do?

"I need you." He says through his tears and irregular breathing. "Jin needs you. Please. Don't let yourself down right now, Taehyung. You'll get pass this a-and maybe, we can laugh about it in the future, even though it's not funny. Because that's the type of person you are, you laugh at things that aren't funny, and you don't like wearing shoes, a-and you always say you'll dye your hair until it falls off. And you hate my clothes but it doesn't hurt my feelings, I hate them too."

Taehyung looks down at Jungkook who is almost hyperventilating.

"If you come down I-I'll go on a diet and stop eating greasy food because I know how much you worry about my eating habits, a-and I'll stop working late and coming in early. I'll do whatever you want, because. Because. Please. I'll never dress you in a bright color again."

Jungkook gives up talking and falls to his knees holding Taehyung by the wrist. "Please, Taehyung."

Taehyung steps away from the edge but Jungkook doesn't notice until the silverette wraps his arms around the crying boy.

Taehyung's embrace only makes Jungkook sob harder.

"I'm sorry." Taehyung says into Jungkook's hair as he tries to calm him down by rocking him.

"Please, Taehyung." The younger continues to cry as he fists the front of Taehyung's shirt.

"I'm sorry." Taehyung continues to whisper, guilt building in his gut.

"Please don't leave." Jungkook cries.

"I won't. I'm right here."

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