Jaded /vkook/taekook/

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Jungkook sighs as Jongsuk knocks on the bathroom door again, asking him if he was okay.

"I'm fine, Suk. I just feel a little sick." He lies from where he sits on the edge of the tub.

"Do you need me to get you anything?" The older asks worriedly.

"No. I'm fine." Jungkook says putting his head in his hands. "Just leave me alone for a second, please."

Jongsuk doesn't respond, leaving him alone.

More tears form in Jungkook's eyes, wetting his palms as he wipes them away.

He was dealing with so many pent up emotions all at once and it was overwhelming him.

He completely understood what Taehyung was saying and he wasn't ready to be friends either.

His heart still beats too fast when he sees him and he still longs for his touch, deep down inside he felt like he'd never be ready to just be his friend.

He grabs his phone from the counter and sends Jin a text asking him if they could meet up.

He knew it was a bit inconsiderate considering that he's probably been up all day with Taehyung but the older responds quickly.

Jungkook wipes his face and brushes his hair down in the mirror before leaving the bathroom.

Jongsuk looks up from where he sits on his laptop. "You okay, bun?"

"Yeah. I'm going to meet Seokjin, my friend I introduced you to." The younger says keeping his head down to try and hide his puffy eyes as he puts his shoes on.

"Were you crying?" Jongsuk asks sitting his laptop down and standing. "Are you still feeling sick?"

"No. I'm fine now I think." Jungkook says clearing his throat. "I'm only going to be gone for a little bit, Seokjin said he needed me."

Jongsuk nods, walking over to him and placing his hand on his forehead. "Come back if you feel sick again."

"I will. I'll be back." Jungkook says turning to leave.

"I love you." The older says as he goes.

"I love you too." The younger says, that's another thing, he genuinely did have feelings for Jongsuk.

He pulls his hood up as he steps off the elevator onto Jin's floor, not wanting to be spotted by any contestants.

When he gets to Jin's room the older pulls him inside and leads him to the bed, sitting him down and giving him a sympathetic smile.

"I'm sorry for this, hyung. I know you've probably been up all day~"

"Please, Jungkook. You know I'm always here for you." The older says. "What's wrong? Were you crying?"

Fresh tears spring into Jungkook's eyes and he forces his gaze down. "I don't know why I'm crying."

"Talk to me." Jin says, wanting the younger to express what he was feeling.

"I talked to Taehyung earlier and ever since I've been feeling so overwhelmed." The younger explains, wiping his eyes. "He told me we couldn't be friends and I understand that. I don't think we can be friends either, hyung."

Jin nods along with Jungkook's words.

"I thought I was ready, I thought I could handle seeing him here. I thought that having Jongsuk with me would make it easier but it's not. It's so freaking hard, hyung." Jungkook says, wiping his tears uselessly as more fall. "I wish I didn't have a heart."

Jin chuckles softly at his last statement, scooting closer and hugging him. "It's okay, Jungkook."

"I still love him, hyung." The younger admits quietly.

"He still loves you too." The older says truthfully.

His words make Jungkook's heart race and he knows that they shouldn't but they do.

"I shouldn't feel like this. I shouldn't still be crying over him after all this time. If Jongsuk knew I was like this he'd be so hurt." The younger sighs hiding his face in Jin's chest. "What do I do, hyung?"

"You have to follow your heart, Jungkook. I can't tell you what to do in this situation." Jin answers brushing the younger's hair down.

"Last time I tried to follow my heart I ended up in a foreign country with a broken heart." Jungkook says making Jin laugh.

"Come on, Jungkook. You're one of the most successful people~"

"I know. I should be happy and I should be moving on." The younger says sadly. "I just wish I could have all of this and still have Taehyung. I'd be so happy to share my success with him."

"Do you trust your heart?"

"Yes."

"Then follow it without question."

——

The fashion show usually goes the same every year, there are always the same categories and the same types of extravagant clothes and jewelry.

Taehyung hates following the trends every year and usually ends up wearing things that are no longer considered "popular" in the modeling world.

This year his color scheme consists of mostly whites and different shades of blue to compliment his hair.

Jimin insisted on showing off his body this year so he's also showing more skin than he has since he's been in the competition.

"You look good, Tae." Jin says as he watches Mina dress him.

"Thank you." The model says, looking at himself in the mirror with judgmental eyes.

The show isn't something nerve racking for Taehyung, he's not worried about what everyone else is worried about like tripping or looking stiff.

He just does what he does every year and hopes it's enough.

When he first walks down the runway in his casual wear he meets Jungkook's eyes for a moment, looking away immediately and performing for the crowd.

The hardest part about the entire show is keeping his mind off of Jungkook while he models.

Taehyung is glad when it's over and the judges leave to compare scores.

    "You looked great out there, Tae." Jin smiles as Taehyung gets his make up removed.

    "Thanks, hyung." The younger sighs, standing from the chair. "I'm gonna change and probably head back to my room to wait for the awards ceremony."

    "Okay. Namjoon flew in last night for the show so I'm going to go find him. You'll be okay?" The older asks.

    "Yeah. Have fun." Taehyung says grabbing his bag and disappearing into the changing room.

He changes quickly before leaving the building the fashion show was being held in, walking the short distance back to the hotel alone.

He's glad Namjoon flew out because he didn't have the energy to keep Jin company at the moment.

He just wanted to lie down and sleep until the ceremony tonight.

He didn't know why he felt like he reopened a wound by talking to Jungkook last night but he did.

It's like he started his entire "healing" process over again.

Maybe he'd never be able to heal the wound left behind by Jungkook.

Maybe he'd never be that happy ever again in his life.

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