you showed me your true colors.
you went from white to black.
it was perfect,
loving and secure,
then it went to terrible,
destructive, and unsafe.
being with you made me feel high on life at first
but after awhile i had to get high just to escape you.
you made touching feel so good at first but why do i now fear your hands on my body?
you had a smile that could kill,
and it did.
it went from hand holding,
to me grabbing you and begging you not to end things this way when i should've just let you leave.
it went from soft kisses from your mouth to mine
to words that spit out of your mouth and cut me deeply.
it went from telling each other everything, genuinely trusting each other
to you doing so much behind my back i could never put the pieces back together.
it went from my safe place
to my worst nightmare.
it went from good,
to bad.
from happy,
to sad.
it started off as love
and ended up as pain.
i wish i could've caught on sooner because i still stayed with you,
you showed your true colors and i stayed,
it wasn't until I really opened my eyes that i could fully see just how dark and twisted this all was,
until i could see the damage you had done to us..
to me.
and at that point i already loved you too much,
it was too late for me.
