at night my brain thinks of you
and i cant make it stop
i can district myself during the day,
surround myself with people i love,
talk about you occasionally but play it off like i dont care
but as soon as i am alone again
you pop in my head
and i cant get you out
and i have to sit there with the pain and the tears
i have to try to remember what your touch felt like
i have to sit in all of this hurt
until i can fall asleep
and this happens every single night
every single day that you dont come back
my heart breaks a little bit more
and my soul fades away slowly
its at night when i wish the most that i was numb
i wish i didn't have to hurt so bad and know that you're okay and happy with somebody else
my body is collapsing,
and you're doing just fine
i wish that you knew how i feel
but i also just wish this feeling would go away
every night without you i feel empty and lost
i miss how close you would lay next to me and play with my hair until i fell asleep in your arms
i miss waking up to still being in your arms after all of the hours you could've turned away...
you stayed, i stayed in your arms
and now its not an option
i wish it was, more than anything
all i want is to spend one more night with you
wait... thats a lie
i want to spend every night with you
forever
but that isnt going to happen
i know it wont its just that
i feel so lonely without you
and i wish i was numb to all these feelings
but im not
so tonight my brain will think of you, there's nothing i can do about it
all i can do is sit and be sad until i fall asleep
