Manual of The Forbidden ➡ Irwin

Chapter 25.

"I didn't want to be there anymore." he began, his words growing bitter as he spoke.

I was okay with that answer, it is not like I was going to push him to talk about a topic like this, but he opened his mouth... Was he really going to tell me everything?.

"The reason was this girl, Diana," he said with his eyes fixed on the cushion on his lap, "we dated for two years; we were good, or at least that was what I thought, one day I got home and my mum told me Diana had passed by and had left me a note, some kind of letter or something like that..." he stayed silent for a couple of seconds, his breathing was unsteady and loud, he sounded sad but he kept talking. "I went to my room and sat to read the letter; it said that she was leaving, that I shouldn't go after her, that we... We were over; she was sorry for ending things that way, but she was leaving because she needed something... Better than me," his angel face looked like rock right now, but somehow fragile, "I finished my last year of college and ran away as soon as I could, I wanted to go to England but I ended up here, and I liked it, I realised I was far enough from home so I stayed here. One year later my family moved here. And while I was adapting to my life here, trying to forget her and everything I left behind, was hard, because I loved her too much.. And for her it wasn't good enough..." his voice fell silent again and I knew he was done.

"She's so stupid!" I muttered.

"What?" he murmured.

"She's stupid!" I said louder, "you will excuse me about this, but she is, you weren't good enough?, She needed something better?, Is there even something better that you?!" a voice in my head shouted "SHUT UP!, SHUT UP!" and, as soon as that last question left my mouth I regretted it, but it was too late, I felt the blush creeping on my cheeks and I also felt ashamed, but Ashton looked at me kindly, moving my heart, so I kept talking. "she was so dumb," I muttered, "she didn't see how kind, talented, funny, incredible and handsome guy you are!" I said with a smile plastered on my face.

He smiled at me.

"And I'm pretty sure she never found that 'something better' she was looking for," I said making quotation marks in the air. "because there's nothing better than you, it is like she threw away a treasure she won't ever get back again, that's why I say Sharon's so lucky to have you." I said that last part with a bit of sadness in my voice.

"You're so nice," he muttered, making my heart beat faster and faster. "thank you."

I could barely smile, still astonished by the weight of my words, I spoke with no filter, I just said what I really thought of him, and I was still trying to calm down my heart from it's high speed rhythm.

"You know, you're the first one I tell this."

I thought my heart was back at it's normal rhythm, but as soon as those words left his mouth it started racing again.

"Thanks for trusting me."

"Thanks for listening to me."

I smiled at him, still not understanding how she was capable of let him go.

"Well stop talking about me!, it's my turn to ask!" he said, his smile appearing again, and I got lost in it waiting for him to ask the first question. "Who encouraged you to become a photographer?"

"My dad," I said, "he liked taking pictures of me and my mum, and then he would let me sit on his lap, and show me the pictures one by one saying how much he loved "his girls" and then he would hug me and tell me how much he loved me, it made me fell protected." I said, but the memories reached my throat, cracking my voice.

"I'm sure he was really proud of you." Ashton said, gently stroking my knee, smiling at me.

"Thanks Ash."

"Tell me, What about the guy back in Sydney?" I laughed, he had this ability of changing subjects so fast it still amazed me.

"What guy?" I asked a little bit confused.

"The one you were talking about with Michael today, the guy you and..."

"Oh!, him..." I cut him off, I remembered my little white lie and searched for something clever to come out with. "well as you said, he's in the past, it's nothing."

"Have you ever fallen in love?" he asked, his hazel eyes darted on my face with intensity, making my heart stumble in it's beating.

"Just once, with my ex-boyfriend," I explained, "but, it didn't work." I shrugged.

"Why?"

"Well, you know I love photography, and art, and all that kind of things, and he... Well he didn't have any interests," I rolled my eyes. "but he is a good guy."

"So, are you looking for someone to be with?"

"No, Ashton I'm not, I believe he'll come to me someday." I held back a sigh.

"Destiny?"

"Maybe,"

"Tell me, do... Michael..." he seemed to be struggling with the words. "well you two seem to get along really well... But... Do you, do you like Michael?" he spit it out, however looking ashamed of his question.

The little Shrew appeared, suddenly happy by the question Ashton just asked me. "Tell him you do, tell him you do" she sang, but I ignored her, sending her back to the corner she had came from.

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