Manual of The Forbidden ➡ Irwin

Chapter 37.

I was growing impatient and scared, like the way people feel when they're facing their worst nightmare, you feel your heartbeat in your ears and your throat closed, unable to say a word, not even squeal.

I started thinking what was I going to write on my will, the things I should have given to certain people; at least I was going to die happy, in the arms of the man I loved.

Strands of hair started to move along with the produced wind, but then were becoming still as we reached the top, until that moment the ride d been quiet, if you could call it like that, medium speed, nothing to worry about, but now I was about to freak out: the rush of facing your way down to hell. My heart raced and the ride up felt endless, which was both a good and a bad thing; good because I didn't want to fall just yet, and bad because I knew the fall would be longer than expected.

Panic started to build inside of me, and my breathing became unsteady, I knew it was stupid, and it was just a roller coaster, but I swear you could hear my heartbeat 3000 miles away. I didn't know if it was the rush of the moment or the feeling that you're about to die, but I felt the need of telling Ashton I loved him, like if I didn't I wasn't going to see him again.

"Ashton... I have something to tell you," I muttered, my voice shaky.

He looked at me and his eyes embraced me.

"I..."

The bloody yells of the people around me cut me off, and the flip my stomach took made me close both my mouth and eyes tight. My time had run out.

I wrapped my arms around Ashton's body and rested my head on his firm chest, filling my nostrils with his personal fragrance, taking me to paradise and beyond; and he squeezed me closer to him in protection.

I heard the sound of the wheel against the rail, the screams that mixed euphoria and horror of those surrounding me, the sound of Ashton's beating heart against my ear, and I felt my stomach on the floor, a feeling that repeated over and over.

I opened my eyes when everything around me stopped moving, however everything inside of me was upside down, my head was spinning around, my stomach was on the ground and I couldn't catch my breath.

"That was fun, huh?" he giggled, bringing me back to the real world.

"Are you fucking kidding me?! I almost died up there!" I yelled, but he just laughed turning the freak show inside of my stomach into a peaceful sunset.

He helped me out of the cart, not letting go of my hand, preventing me from falling, I have to admit I felt dizzy.

"It's your turn!" he cheered like nothing happened a dew seconds ago.

"Ok, well I choose that bench over there," I said, spotting a black bench a few meters away from us. I needed to take a seat if not a lot of people would see what I had for lunch that evening.

He laughed and took me there.

"It wasn't a big deal, I don't know why you're complaining." he sat with me and finally let go of my hand, I felt its absence immediately.

"It wasn't for you, but I swear I wanted to die," I held my head between my hands, rubbing small circles with my thumbs on my temples, I felt a headache coming ahead.

"What did you want to tell me?"

"Uh?" I looked up at him, remembering I almost confessed my feelings to him.

"Yeah, you said you had something to tell me on that first descent,"

"Well, I was going to tell you if you ever tried to get me on a roller coaster again I was going to kill you," a said in a hope he would believe me.

He laughed and I relaxed, he had bought my little white lie.

"Ok, I won't do it again,". He surrendered.

I tried to eliminate the urge to puke, so I tried focusing on the things around me, and I admired Ashton's left profile, the one I saw when he drove; the glow in his eyes contrasting with the little lights, and his not-so-pale-nor-so-tan skin, and his smile like pearls in the sea.

I grabbed my camera and took a picture of him.

He looked at me.

"You did it again!". He whined.

"I already told you, you don't need to strike a pose or something," I laughed.

"Finally you're laughing!" he observed, "your laugh is beautiful."

I couldn't help but blush, even in the darkness created by the night sky, he could see it, he smiled proudly.

"Thanks," I muttered, trying to hide the redness on my cheeks.

"Are you ok now?" I nodded. "ok let's go, there are still a lot of attractions to try!" he was so excited, he almost dragged me with him.

"What?!" I squealed, "but you just promised..."

"I promised I wouldn't get you in another "damn ride" like the roller coaster, if not you will kill me, but there's still a lot of games to try," he argued, "please have fun with me!" he begged with his eyes and pouted his lips.

"Okay." I sighed in defeat, I couldn't say no to him.

He took me by the hand to every game he could, in which my hair was getting messier and messier. He was right spending time with him was fun, we could run and laugh just because, like little kids. We ran around, waiting on the queues with our hands together, and while we waited I took pictures of him, without him noticing it, of course.

I felt free, special, happy, I felt like never before, it was like forgetting everything else had existed like there has only been the two of us, just laughing and having him to look at me with his hazel-green eyes and to make me feel like the happiest person that has ever steped on earth, he was one of a kind, charming, he could be all by himself a song, a poem, a rose, whatever he wanted.

I didn't laugh like this since my parents died, and it felt like the world had disappeared and I was floating far away from home, he was so perfect it was stupid, his smile was like a forbidden treasure, those you can't look for nor find, however, tempting and beautiful.

After getting on almost every game on the fair we decided to take a break and sit somewhere. Ashton bought some blue cotton candy and we sat on a bench next to the cotton candy man.

"It was fun spending time with you," he spoke while eating the cotton candy. "you're not like Sharon, you know?" he uttered.

-SHARON!- I thought.

Why I only remembered her when Ashton brought her into the conversation?

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[A/N]

Is it hi or hey???

Guys I'm so sorry for not updating in a long time and as I said in my latest update of Anestesia there was a lot of shit going on and I wasn't able to update I'm really sorry believe me!!!!!

But now I'm back and I really hope the wait was worth it.

"Good things come for those who wait." FROOT - Marina & the Diamonds.

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But yeah I really hope you like it.

Peace out hombres.

Love, Ellie.