Manual of The Forbidden ➡ Irwin

Chapter 35.

Read the A/N bellow'

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"Don't worry Dawn," she began. "you gotta prove yourself you're mature enough to handle this, maybe I'm wrong," she shrugged, "maybe this isn't something serious, maybe it's just like a "Summer Love"," she quoted again, "even though it's winter and not summer, but you get the point!" she laughed at her own statement.

"I hope you're right," I said in a barely audible voice.

"Dawn, I can't tell you what to feel, do you love him? That's a question only you can answer, I have no saying in this," she advised me.

"Thanks Tay!" I said trying to pull a smile, but she had really helped me, I owed her big time.

The evening had flew by, since I came home from the café I had been laying on the couch staring at the living-room ceiling thinking. Did I really love him?, and if I did, how could that happen in the space of a month?, was it a month already?, I wasn't taking the count of the days, and I wasn't one of those girls that loves at the blink of an eye. However Ashton managed to gain my trust and my affection in just a week!

He was so special, like a diamond in the rough inside a mine, even when the sun rays doesn't reach him, he can shine by himself overwhelmingly. Did Sharon know that?, Did she realise what she had beside her?.

I stopped in my tracks, I shouldn't think of that and my heart hurt when it beat, the guilt was eating me alive.

I stared at the ceiling, thinking, digging deeper into my thoughts, finding some coherent, and reasonable but others were dark and illogical.

Then the bell rang, bringing my reflections down knowing who was waiting at the other side, speeding my heartbeat. And the pleasure that beat was giving me was so intense it was painful. That's when I understood I loved him, if not I would end up doing it sooner or later, because I was convinced this feelings were way too far from just affection, it hurt but I liked it.

When I heard a second ring and the knocks that came after it I realised Ashton was still waiting outside, so I jumped out of the couch and rushed to the door so I could open the door.

Spending time with Ashton was like loosing track of time, you would never think or worry, just feel safe and laugh, even though I knew it was wrong.

But when I saw him next to me, sitting on the couch moving his lips telling something with that enthusiasm and charm of his, and laughing with a different melody each time showing me his white pearls he made my reach cloud9 without even leaving the ground.

But my time reduced to nothing when Sharon came home, and I had nothing to do but smile and walk to my room saying goodnight and locking myself in.

I dropped my weight in bed staring at the ceiling thinking just like I did in the living-room, I found it pretty ironic how everybody made me realise my feelings: if I liked him, if was jealous, if I loved him.

Was I that stupid and stubborn? But besides all my 'heart problems', if I could call them like that, I had another problem, a really big one, and it was Sharon, she was so fragile, and I couldn't hurt her more than I was hurting myself right now, I was the witch in her fairytale, or at least that's how I felt.

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I woke up with the need of having Ashton next to me, I was waiting for the night to come, only because I wanted to be with him. I decided to distract myself doing nothing, because I knew the "Ignore Ashton" plan wasn't really going to work anyway, so it was useless to think about it.

I opened the window, resting my elbows on the frame, observing the cars driving trough the avenue and waiting for the green light. I went to my room looking for camera but returning to the spot I was standing before to capture that scene which I had liked.

I took a couple of pictures but then the bell rang, I looked at the clock confused, it was just 6:13, who was it at this time of the day? Maybe it was just Mikey.

I walked to the door still carrying my camera on my left hand, I opened it only to reveal Ashton smiling widely at me, his smile was so perfect it caused me chest pains, but it confused me even more, I looked at the clock one more, 6:14, wasn't it to early for him to come here?.

Maybe this was just a mirage, maybe I was just imagining him, standing in front of me looking so perfect, but he always looked perfect.

"What are you doing here so early?" I asked him, letting him in.

"I came here to invite you somewhere!" he said still smiling, showing me his dimples.

"Me?, Where?" I asked excited, my heart couldn't stop jumping.

"It's a surprise, C'mon!" he took me by the hand, my skin burning at the contact

"But..."

"It's like a way to say 'I'm sorry' for what happened the other day," then he looked at the camera in my hand. "and it's a great place to take pictures!" he said knowing that I would never reject the possibility of capturing amazing places with my camera, but I was going to say yes anyway, just because HE was asking me.

"Okay," I surrendered. "even though you didn't have to do this because I already forgave you,"

"Don't say that." he let go of my hand so I could grab my black coat and my purse.

We walked out the building, approaching his Hybrid.

"You're going to love this!" he said, manoeuvring through Venice's streets.

I looked at him, and he smiled in response, and all I could do was sigh.

"What?" he asked visibly blushed.

I didn't say a word.

I grabbed my camera and took a pictures of his profile, he looked so imperfectly perfect.

"Hey!, if you're going to do that you have to tell me!" he complained playfully.

"I don't need to, because even if you aren't aware of it, you look amazing!" I admitted feeling the urge to fight for him with... My best friend.

"Thanks." he said focusing on the road once again.

I knew him well enough to tell he was doing that just to hide the fact that he was blushing, and I liked it, he was blushing for me.

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[A/N]

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