If Only You Knew (Troyler Fanfiction)

Chapter 13: Rain

Tyler POV

I woke up to the strong rays of the sun shining in my face. Mornings were one of the many things I hated about society but when I rolled over and saw the adorable twink lying sleepily next to me suddenly mornings got a lot better. He had the covers pulled up to his nose and his face was nuzzled into the blankets. He looked so perfect when he slept. Wow Tyler your acting like the scene from Twilight when Edward creepily watches Bella sleep. I couldn't help it, he just looked so peaceful. I wanted to memorize everything about this boy, the way he slept, the way he talked, the way he breathed, the way he blinked, everything. I never wanted his face to leave my mind.

I got up to close the blinds so he could still stay asleep, I'd like to say I did this so he wouldn't be tired, but I really just wanted to stare at him for as long as possible without him getting shy and looking away. Troye never liked himself, he always got self-conscious when people looked at him, thinking they were judging him silently, but he was wrong. When I looked at him, all I saw was beauty. His face was just stunning. I could name all of the things that I loved about him but he would never believe me. He always thought people just pitied him. I don't know why he can't just see that he is the most amazing creation. Everything about him just made me fall in love with him again whenever I saw it. But all he focused on were his flaws and it made me sad to see how much he hated himself.

I walked over to his side of the bed and I kissed him on the top of the head, he deserved so much better than I could ever give him, but I was going to make sure he knew how much I loved him.

My stomach started to growl and I remembered that I had barley eaten anything yesterday. I decided to go and make myself some breakfast and get some for Troye. Breakfast in bed was romantic right? I've never been good at this whole romance thing. All of my past relationships had just been brief flings or one night stands, but I didn't want that with Troye. I wanted to wake up with him in this same position every day for the rest of my life. I wanted to spend every last minute of my life with him. I wanted to use my last breath to tell him how much I loved him.

I was completely in love with him. I was obsessed. I didn't know I could be this infatuated with someone, but I'm glad that out of all the people I could have ended up with that it was Troye. I knew from the moment I first saw his post on Tumblr that he was something special. I always wonder what would have happened if I never saw his post that day, but I wouldn't change it for the world. Without Troye my days were dark and my life was empty. He was the reason I loved to be alive, he was my reason to be alive. Without him I wasn't complete.

The elevator suddenly opened in front of me and I almost had a heart attack. I slowly stepped in and made my way down to the lobby to get some food for us. There was so much food set up on top of 3 long tables that stretched across the entire length of the wall. I grabbed 4 plates and filled them up with waffles, pancakes, bacon, eggs, and omelets. I got two bowls and poured some cereal into them and then went to get some drinks. I got two cups of coffee and some orange juice. Finally after gathering all of my food I placed all of the plates onto a tray and carried it towards the elevator.

While I was waiting for the large metal doors to open I remembered that I had no Nutella. Troye would absolutely flip if I brought him waffles with no Nutella. I slowly walked back to the tables so I wouldn't send our feast flying to the floor. Once I finally reached the tables I set my tray down and went out to my car. I always kept a spare jar of Nutella in my car in case Troye ever needed an emergency jar. I know...I'm obsessed. I had my entire life planned around Troye but I don't mind, he's worth it.

I went and placed the jar down on the tray and headed up to our room. I already missed Troye, even though I had only been away from him for a total of 20 minutes. I was always scared to leave him by himself, I felt like if I left him alone he would realize what a horrible person I was and go and find someone better. I never wanted to lose him, I don't know how I would live without him.