If Only You Knew (Troyler Fanfiction)

Chapter 15: Doubt

Trigger Warning: There is some self-harm in this chapter and I don't want anyone to think about harming themselves if they read it. Please if you ever need someone to talk to I'm always here, stay strong lovelies and I hope you like this chapter and don't kill me when it's over.

Troye POV

~Time skip to later that night, back at the hotel~

"Hey Ty, Zoe just texted me. She wants to know when we'll be back in LA, her, Alfie, Marcus, Joe, Caspar, Jim, and Tanya are all thinking about taking a trip to LA to see you."

I was so excited to see all of my friends again, I had missed them so much. It was hard being the only one from Australia, everyone had someone where they were, but me. Skype could only fix so much, but nothing was as good as finally seeing your friends in person. I only saw them 4 maybe 5 times a year so I obviously wanted to see them again, but I was just nervous. Did Tyler want to tell them about us? Would he be embarrassed of me and just want to hide it from them?

"Tell her we have a flight at 7 tomorrow so we will probably be there by 9 the latest." I thought the idea of time zones were crazy. You could literally leave somewhere at 8 at night and get to your destination and have it be 3 hours earlier. I hate time zones, they make it so hard to talk to people, especially Tyler.

Just as I was typing back my response I heard my Skype call go off, looking at the screen I saw it was Zoe. I quickly answered and was greeted by all the Brits surrounding the laptop.

"Hi guys!" As soon as Tyler heard me talking to someone he ran out from the bedroom.

"Hi Troyler!" They all screamed into the speaker twice as loud as I was.

We just talked about when they would come out to meet us, they were going to get a flight tomorrow morning so they would get here at night so the jet lag wouldn't be too bad. I hadn't even realized we had been talking for almost 3 hours until Alfie said that they should get to bed if they ever wanted to wake up in time for their flight. We said our goodbyes and a few minutes later the room was silent again.

"I'm so excited that they're coming to see us!" I looked at Tyler but he was anything but happy.

"Oh, yeah. I guess it's going to be fun." He tried faking a smile but I knew right away that something was up.

"Ty, what's wrong? You always love seeing our friends? Why is this time different?"

"Well this time I'll have to share my boyfriend with everyone else. This is going to be our last night just the two of us for a while and I don't want this to end." He looked so mad, like I just told him that Taco Bell was out of hot sauce.

"Hey babe, look at me. I'm still going to be your boyfriend no matter what. And even if you do have to share me I'll still be by your side the entire time."

"How is this going to work Troye? I love you, but how are our friends going to find out about us? They'll go crazy if they find out were dating." I couldn't believe it. Tyler was embarrassed of me. He was using the usual excuse just so he wouldn't have to tell them about us. He didn't really want to be with me, he was just using me as another one of his flings.

"Well I guess we could just not tell them and act like friends until they leave." I tried to sound okay with this idea but I really wasn't. I didn't want to have to hide anymore, I wanted to show Tyler off to the world as my boyfriend. But obviously he didn't feel the same.

"Really Troye? Thank you so much. I don't want to have to do this but it's just going to be easier for both of us. So just friends for now?"

"Yeah...just friends." That was all I've ever been to Tyler, a replacement. I was just a joke to him. He didn't want me, he just wanted to fool around with someone until he found someone worth keeping.