(A/N two uploads today already. Am I feeling ok?)
| Emma's POV |
I start to sway with the music. It makes me feel kind of alive and I'm living for this bass that's rattling my chest. As I'm swinging my hips round in the direction of Grayson who is lost in the music too, I glance across to where Ethan had been previously.
I hope he sees how hot I look right now.
However, when I glance over I just catch him as he storms out of the venue with his fists and jaw clenched.
I push away from the dance floor to run after him, Grayson close on my heels but once we pause outside, the car we had all come in is gone.
"Mother fucker" Grayson mumbles under his breath, running both hands simultaneously through his hair
"Go back in" I order and Grayson glances at me confused "I'll go back home and then later I'll drive the car to come and pick you up"
He pulls me into a hug and kisses my forehead,
"Thanks, Elmo. Make sure he's ok, yeah?" He smiles and I squeeze his bicep with a knowing look
"Of course, Gracie, now go and shake your hips" I smirk pushing his chest in the direction of the party. He blows me a kiss before he disappears into the venue.
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Once the Uber skids into the drive I take little time to pay and thank him before I'm fumbling with the front door keys.
Inside the house there's loud crashes and bangs and every so often a deep and hoarse scream or growl erupts. Truthfully I'm terrified but some how my feet shuffle me towards the noise and sure enough I'm trembling outside Ethan's bedroom door.
I knock, no idea why I fucking knock, but I do.
I push open the door slightly to watch as Ethan slams his foot into his drum set and throws his phone across the room, along with littering all the paper he had neatly organised on his desk onto the floor with one foul swoop.
He slams his fist into the wall, not once and definitely not twice.
"Ethan" I barely let escape my lips. He doesn't stop beating the wall in fact if anything he beats the wall harder and harder until the blood from his knuckles imprint upon his white walls.
I rush to try and pull him back but he's too strong so I do all I possibly can and position myself between himself and the wall.
One swing and I'd probably be dead.
He pulls back his hand again to swing but as soon as our eyes connect he begins to shake, I wrap my whole hand round is fist just in case.
He pulls away from me abruptly before continuing with his anger, throwing things around his room and booting whatever he can with his foot
"Ethan" I shout grabbing on to his bicep but he doesn't listen "ETHAN" I scream yanking him with all my might backwards it causes me to topple and fall. I land upon the bed but because of my tight grip on his arm he falls too, crushing my body underneath him.
"Shit I'm sorry I-" he tries to push himself away but I wrap both my arms tightly round his neck and hold him in a tight hug.
I don't care that I'm loosing all feeling in my body, as long as he's not hurting himself anymore.
"What are you doing, Emma?" He asks coldly into my chest as I keep him there "you're supposed to be with my brother, having fun. You're supposed to be being strong and not letting jealousy override you, because I tried god damn it." He let's go of a sob into my chest "I tried to make you jealous and I'm sorry"
I hush him, running my hands through his tangled hair trying to be as helpful as humanly possible.
"It's okay, everything's okay, E" I whisper into his head feeling as my toes begin to tingle with numbness "please breathe" I worry noticing his panicked breaths
"I'm sorry I fuck things up all the time. I'm sorry I'm an idiot. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I'm not Grayson"
The last sentence rips me apart, my stomach sinks and everything begins to simply hurt.
"Ethan stop" I growl starting to get annoyed. He has no idea how I feel about him, he doesn't have the right to say that I like Grayson more.
I don't.
He carries on apologising and every time he says he's sorry for something he hasn't done, I cry harder until I'm numb all over.
My bodies numb from his weight, my arms are numb from how hard I'm holding onto him and my cheeks are numb because of the tears streaming down them.
I close my eyes to try and suppress the tears but even with them closed they still slide out and down my hot face.
I can't keep it in any longer, I know that his head is raised so that he is watching as I uncontrollably cry and now he's stopped talking so all he can hear is the heaving and bouncing of my chest underneath his frame.
"I love you" I cry "I LOVE YOU" I then scream as loud as I possibly could so that all the neighbours could hear and so that my throat burns "I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!" I carry on as loud as possible not even opening my eyes to stare at his probably shocked facial expression "I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!"
I'm screaming that much that my tonsils feel like fire, but he needs to know. He needs to know- and if he knows so should the rest of LA.
"I LOVE YOU" I scream again putting the emphasis on the you. I don't love Grayson, I love him. I love Ethan.
Then to my disbelief there's another scream that follows,
"I LOVE YOU!"
But the scream is much louder and it rings through my ears... and it's not my voice. It's Ethan.
He said it, he really said it back.
"I LOVE YOU!" I respond as loud as possible allowing my eyes to open as I watch him lean backwards, with his eyes screwed and face up to the ceiling like a wolf ready to howl at the moon.
"I LOVE YOU!" He repeats and it shakes the house.
"I LOVE YOU!" I say with an almighty screech and he responds back, a smile seems to be fighting its way through my once sad tears.
It's just us two, in an empty house, screaming.
"I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU!I LOVE YOU! you're squishing me bUT I LOVE YOU"
He realises and wriggles off, flopping himself down onto the bed next to me. His hand slightly brushes mine and ever so slowly he moulds them together.
"I love you" he whispers breaking a smile on what was once a broken face.
I find myself giggling through my tears and he brings his lips to my cheek to kiss the remaining tear trailing down my face
"I love you too"
