(A/N there's gonna be flashbacks in here from the past months of her pregnancy it's like a compilation of the videos she collected. Don't be confused. Ok bye ily)
| Emma's POV |
I'm sat in front of the camera, it's kinda lopsided but it's my brand so who cares. My hands are sweating and I'm chewing down on my lip. I know that the camera is already rolling but I'm not saying anything. Other than the two words before it flashes back.
"I'm scared"
Me editing:
Multiple months ago
"I'm freaking out. I haven't uploaded in such a while and I know I can't even upload this" I breath out and look around the bathroom. Ethan is out with Grayson, probably filming "I'm freaking out"
I hold my hand to my head and take a shaky breath. This can't be happening.
"I thought I'd bring you on this journey so that we can have a laugh at me being melodramatic" I giggle but I'm scared. I'm absolutely terrified that if this test is positive my life changes forever.
I bring the test to my face, the first one.
I've let it sit and now it's time for it to determine my fate.
"I'm shaking- FUCK" I shout holding my hand up to the view of the camera to see my violent trembles "I'm sure I'm not... I'm not, there's no way I am" I look at the test "oh I'm not" I sigh until the second line starts to slowly appear "wait I am?"
I start to breakdown, fully bawling my eyes out. What the fuck am I supposed to do? I'm laughing towards the camera but because I feel like I'm pranking myself.
"It's so faint-" I cry studying the test "-but it's there" I start to cry again. Are we surprised?
Me editing:
I'm hormonal, leave me alone.
Me editing:
A couple of weeks after.
"I have something to show you" I whisper into the camera, my eyes are tearing up. I'm being quiet because in the other room is Ethan and I'm yet to tell him that I've been documenting myself.
I pull up the scan and show it towards the camera, with my hand clamped round my mouth to prevent my loud sobs.
"This doesn't feel real" I cry running both hands through my hair and looking up towards the ceiling "I'm actually pregnant, holy shit I've not said that out loud"
I rub my eyes to stop my tears but it doesn't help, I just smile through them towards the camera. I'm just speechless, I've never been able to not make a joke in a situation like this.
"Guys" I gasp as if it's finally sinking in. I set the camera down so I can pick the scan up, I point towards the bean-like shadow and then the second "it's twins"
I let go of another cry towards my hands and pull away in disbelief.
"I'm so scared to tell you" I finally whisper "Ethan wants to, I know he does. I just can't deal with the hate. As you can see I'm very emotional" I laugh rubbing my raw skin as it burns.
Me editing:
We didn't get Ethan's reaction, not initially or at the scan. But just imagine how cute he looked while he cried with happiness.
Me editing:
Fuck I'm crying again.
"Hi guys so I have news" I'm much bigger now, my face has swollen slightly and the rest of my body also. I'm wearing clothes I would've never dreamt of wearing before "at my 20 week scan I found out that I have something called Placenta previa"
I instinctively place my hand on my stomach and sigh.
"The doctors say that it means I must have a C-section otherwise it could be fatal for both me and my babies. We could all die if I go into labour naturally basically"
Me editing:
I'm not explaining it, we have google for a reason🤠
"So I don't want to worry you, were all okay. Ethan has had a bit of a hard time trying to mentally get over the scare of loosing not only our babies but me too, you'll have noticed on twitter"
He'd been tweeting things that definitely were worrying the fans, he was being overly thankful and loving and preached a lot of words about holding loved ones close.
"But all it means is that we have the official due date of our babies and although I'm scared as fuck to be a mother, I'm so excited to see them"
I squeal and the camera switches a few weeks further
"Hi guys, it's me and I'm looking phat with a PH" I giggle holding the vlog camera out in front of me.
Ethan still doesn't know about this and I think I plan to keep it a secret until he asks for us to announce and the video is already edited and ready to go. I know that on his channel he'll upload the reaction videos when I give him the all clear. But this is special.
"So they're inducing me at 36 weeks oh my god" I slap my hand into the side of my face in shock "I'm so nervous I literally feel like throwing up"
I take a seat on Ethan's bed and breathe a sigh of relief
"Ethan has been the absolute best, you guys have no idea" I gush proceeding to tell the fans about his constant attention, love and affection "I guess I also forgot to tell you that we did not find out the sex of the babies, we want a surprise"
I take a deep breath looking past the camera, before moving my eyes back to the lens with an anxious smile,
"Thanks for watching how much of a mess I am" I giggle "I think this is the end of this video, until I finally have my babies in my arms" I smile with a high sigh "that sounds so crazy"
I rub my forehead as I swing my legs onto the bed.
"I'll see you in a few weeks, thank you for the support, I love you"
Me editing:
Like, subscribe, comment... ONLY NICE THINGS
"Okay bye"
