Fake Love

Part 39

Briar POV

I meet Myles at his car after school that day. I'm extremely nervous for some reason. If Myles asks me to be his girlfriend I'll probably freeze up ad embarrass myself ... but if he doesn't ask me I'll probably be heartbroken. I don't know which is a worse feeling.

"Hey B." Myles says walking up to me.

"Hey Mylo." I say, immediately regretting using that nickname for him.

"Mylo huh?" He asks, smugly. "I like it."

I roll my eyes. "Of course you do."

He gets in the car and I do the same. He starts up the car and we start driving home. Its silent for the first half of the way there. Its not a comfortable silence either, its awkward.

"So what'd you want to talk about?" I ask him, breaking the silence.

"I wanted to talk about what's for dinner." He says plainly.

Uhm ... is he for real, right now.

"I'm kidding." He laughs. "I want to talk about us, obviously."

"Oh you had me there." I giggle and roll my eyes.

"I really want to be with you, B." He tells me. "I'm in love with you."

"But ... " I say, knowing where this conversation is going.

"But I think we should just hold off on our relationship for a little while." He says and my heart drops. "Just until things settle down and Dylan isn't so upset about everything."

I understand where he's coming from but I feel more angry than anything else. It seems as though I'm always second best with him or fake best. First it was Logan and now its Dylan. He always puts their feelings ahead of mine. and yet he says he has feelings for me ... 

"You understand, don't you?" He asks me looking at me.

"Yeah I understand but ... " I trail off.

"But ... " He pushes me on this time.

"But I can't do this anymore, Myles." I blurt out. "I'm sick of being second best or fake best."

"Second best? Briar you were never second best to me." He tells me.

"That's bullshit." I snap. "Logan and now Dylan always seem to be more important to you than I am."

"That's not true." He shakes his head. "At least not anymore."

"Really." I ask him. "So then why are you always putting Dylan and Logan's feeling before mine?"

"It'd break Dylan's heart if we were to walk into school tomorrow hand in hand. I'm just having a little bit of respect for her, B." He explains. "Maybe you should try it sometime."

"I cannot believe you right now!" I shout. "HOW DO YOU THINK I FELT WHEN YOU REJECTED ME IN FRONT OF THE ENTIRE SCHOOL? OR WHEN I FOUND OUT YOU WERE DATING DYLAN? EVEN WHEN YOU ASKED ME TO BE YOUR FAKE GIRLFRIEND IT HURT ME, AND NOW YOU'RE BEING ALL NICE TO YOUR EX'S!"

"I'm sorry." He says. "I didn't realise it hurt you so much."

"Whatever." I turn my head away from him to try hide my tears. "And the one time I actually thought I had a chance with you, Dylan yet again takes it away from me." I mutter not thinking he could hear me.

"I'm in love with you Briar." He tells me. "Nothing and no one is going to change that."