The Love Between US [BxBxB]

21. If We Had Just Been Honest

MATTY POV

Hello sweet grief
I know you will be the death of me

Feel like the morning after ecstasy
I am drowning in an endless sea
Hello old friend

Here's the misery that knows no end

So I am doing everything I can

To make sure I never love again

I sang in the shower with Nakoa on my hip, washing his soft curls in the falling water as he coughed. I made sure I didn't get any soap in his eyes and he tiredly rested his head on my chest. My poor baby has an upper respiratory infection that had us on edge, giving him prescribed antibiotics.

He was crying as he each painful cough ravaged through his body and all I could do was rock him back and forth while singing to him. 

I wish that I did not know

Where all broken lovers go
I wish that my heart was made of stone
Yeah if I was bulletproof
I'd love you black and blue
If I was solid like a jewel

I continued and he whimpered with his head rested on my wet shoulder. I left the shower on and exited the shower, touching the keypad and putting the water on it's highest setting so more steam could evade the room as I dried off Nakoa first. Toweling him off before wrapping him up like a burrito in his favorite unicorn bathrobe that was soft to his hot sensitive skin. 

If I had a diamond heart

Oh oh
I'd give you all my love
If I was unbreakable
If I had a diamond heart
Oh oh
You could shoot me with a gun of gold
If I was unbreakable

I wrapped a towel around my waist and sat on the edge of the bathtub, taking a little Vicks and rubbing it on his chest to open up his airways like my dad use to do when I was a baby. 

"Mommy, it hurts," Koa cried at the soft burn of the Vicks and I gently kissed the top of his head.

"I know baby, but it will help you feel better," I told him and he coughed before tiredly resting his little head against my bare chest as I cradled him.  

I'd walk straight through the bullet

Bendin' like a tulip
Blue-eyed and foolish
Never mind the bruises
Into the fire

Breakin' through the wires
Give you all I've got
If I had a diamond heart
I'd walk straight through the dagger
Never break the pattern
Diamonds don't shatter
Beautiful and battered
Into the poison
Cry you an ocean
Give you all I've got

I continued, patting his back to get the mucus out and his cries turned to gentle whimpers. 

Goodbye, so long
I don't know if this is right or wrong
Am I giving up where I belong?
'Cause every station is playing our song
Goodbye my love
You are everything my dreams made of
You'll be Prince and I'm the crying dove
If I only were unbreakable