So this is love? -discontinued

Part 3: Queer Questioning

 I've never been so afraid of my parents in all of my life. I was so nervous when I got home from school. 

I ran straight up to my room saying I had homework. I opened my computer and typed 'types of sexualities' I hope this helps me. I hit the enter button on my google search. 

A site popped up with all the LGBTQ+ terms and their definitions. I looked at the list. I guess at the moment I'm a questioning closeted cisgender. 

That's fun. 

But which one of these sexualities am I? I googled, 'What is my sexuality test' up came a quiz. I clicked on it.

Question one, In the past, which sex have you been attracted to the most? 

I answered C, The opposite sex. 

Question two, which sex do you find more physically attracted? 

I answered, E, the same sex. 

Because I've never felt that way before about anyone. 

Question three, did you ever date someone who has the same sex as you? 

I answered, C, once or twice, because technically we are dating now... Right? Yeah. 

Question four, do you find the opposite sex attractive? 

I answered, D, to some extent, I mean I've passed guys who I thought looked hot... That counts right? 

Question five, do you find the same sex attractive? 

I answered, A, which made me embarrassed. I answered Yes, very much... 

Question six, do you dream of kissing/having sex with the same sex or the opposite sex? 

I answered, C, it depends. Cuz it does. 

Question seven, who was your first love?

Easy, B someone of the same sex. 

Question eight, have you ever been in a solid relationship? 

No. but I'm in one now, doesn't that count? I'm gonna count it. 

I answered, B, yes with someone of the same sex. 

Question nine, what is your opinion on homosexuality? 

Okay, I guess... My parents are homophobic, I am religious, and my religion says I'm gonna go to hell if I am gay... so that's fun. 

But personally, I think if that is who you love you shouldn't be hated on. I answered, A, I think I'm homosexual and accept it fully. 

Finally, what do you think your sexuality is? Hard one. I'm not quite sure. I think I might be bisexual or a full-on lesbian... Who knows. I answered bisexual.

I hit the test result button, and it says I'm 50% lesbian, 30% bisexual, and 20% straight. Well, this can't answer all of my issues, but it gave me a general idea of who I am as a person. 

I'm pretty sure that I'm bi now, but that's not set in stone. The nice thing about this is that I don't need the answers as of right now. I can take time to figure this out, and I shouldn't rush it...

My mom burst into my room and I shut my laptop and turned around quickly. She looked at me skeptically, but that's okay. 

 "What were you doing?" she questions. 

"Oh, nothing just some homework," I answered quickly. That could've been bad. 

"Okay..." She brushed it off. "How was school? Did you meet him today?"