So this is love? -discontinued

Part 5: Coming Out... Kinda...

 That was all that happened that day. 

My parents picked me up early. We went home in silence. I am so mad at Kennedy with her perfect hair and dreamy eyes. God, I wish she could just not. I am still so red from the kiss. 

On the lips. She took my first kiss, and she's my soulmate. 

I've never been happier. And I've never been more scared. 

I know my parents know what happened at school today and I'm afraid they will ask me about my supposed 'future husband', and I hope they're not disappointed when they find out the real gender of my girlfriend.

"Ella, how was school today? Did you find your man???" My mom pried as she looked back at me from the passenger seat.

"Yeah kinda...." I replied at an almost whisper...

"What do you mean, kinda?"

"Mom, can I ask you a completely unrelated question?" I asked obvious worry in my voice.

"Ask away."

"What if my soulmate isn't who you expected?"

"What do you mean by that?"

"Well, what if they are a girl, or are nonbinary for that matter?"

My mom laughed, "Why would God make your soulmate be someone who he doesn't think we will approve of, and why would he give you a disgusting sinner for that matter, who would make you a sinner?!? You are being ridiculous Ella... So who is your soulmate?"

"T-There name is... Ken..." I said after a moment of hesitation. 

"Oh... Is he nice, tall, sweet, comforting?"

"Sh---er HE is all of those things..."

My mom sighed, "Good, I'm glad. He sounds just like your father was to me."

I was so nervous. We got home and I raced straight up to my room and slammed my door. 

I started to have a panic attack... I needed to call Kennedy. I needed her to come here and hold me. I needed her loving touch and comforting voice... So I called her.

Ring, Ring, Ring... What if she doesn't pick up... Ring... why won't she pick up... 

"Ella, are you okay?" I cried for I don't know how long... "Alright, what is your address, I'm coming over right now." Somehow I mumbled out my address and told her not to come in the front door but to sneak in my window...

When she arrived I was on my bed holding my knees close to my chest, rocking back and forth, still crying silently.

"Ella, what happened to you?" Kennedy asked as she crawled through the window.

"Kennedy, my mom, my mom, she called us sinners, she said so many bad things---" 

I was cut off when Kennedy grabbed me from behind, pulled me into her lap, and whispered in my ear, 

"Shhhh, it doesn't matter what they think, you can come live with me if they kick you out, and does it matter if I love you more than anything?" 

It was so warm in her arms, so comfortable in her lap, my head was so comfortable on her chest. 

I don't know when I fell asleep, but when I woke up to my mom's yelling, I found myself laying on the bed holding Kennedy, and her holding me. I was on top of her, so I looked down at her and watched her sleep. 

Her features were perfect, Long red-brown eyelashes, laying still on her eyes, freckles scattering her bronze skin, her jawline, wonderfully defined with her hair sitting against it slightly. Her lips were soft and smooth. I thought back to our kiss yesterday and felt a blush rising. She's just so... I can't find words good enough for her... damn... I sighed unintentionally but still audible...

"Morning, Angel," Kennedy said in a rough morning voice. 

 "Didn't your mom tell you it's rude to stare?" A light pink brushed over my face. "I'm only teasing love. How did you sleep?"

"Fine... What about you?" My voice was a little too squeaky.

Kennedy smiled, "Better when you were here with me..."

She needs to stop. "Staawwwwpp!" I complained burying my face in her chest. She laughed. I got up off of her and she cried "Nooooo come back and snuggle with meee..."

"Kennedy, I have to get ready for school, and you need to sneak out before my mom finds you." I scolded her.

"Uggggg, finnnne," She groaned and rolled out of bed. I heard her body thud onto the floor. I rolled my eyes took a quick shower. When I came back into my room, I noticed she was changed and was brushing her hair.

"You're not gonna shower?" I asked her confused, as I had never missed a shower since I turned twelve.

"Naw, it will be fine, I took one yesterday." She smiled softly and made a light pink tint dance across my face.

"Alright, suit yourself," I said and I went to the drawers to grab myself some socks. 

I opened the drawer and scrounged around to find myself a matching pair. Kennedy had come up behind me and was holding me from behind. I melted at her touch. 

She was soooo warm, I, was always cold. She chuckled and the vibrations in her chest made me feel so safe. I remember I curled into her body and was so happy at the time that I didn't hear my mom yelling at me to get going.