The Crude Casanova

TCC ~ 20

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Chryss

I barely slept last night. This time, it's not because of Ate Ville visiting my dreams. It's because I am thinking of a one particular man.

Never have I ever felt this way before. Kahit sa past relationships ko.

I already had a boyfriend before. I don't know if it's because of the society where I'm in that's why I am influenced to enter a relationship. I was eighteen when I had my first boyfriend. Pero katulad ng ibang relasyon kapag bata pa lang, naghiwalay rin kami.

Next was when I was twenty two. Naisip ko kasi noon na gusto ko ng mature relationship. Hindi iyong pambata lang. Iyong nag-try lang. I wanted something that is sweet but comfortable and a growing one. I guess I really had it with Chad. He was kind and a career oriented person. Not to say he have the looks. He was complete package.

I thought I could love him. Yes I cared for him. But that time, I'm still trying to find my identity. I'm still lost. He tried, but I guess I was a failure. And so as much as he hated it, he let go.

But we remained friends until now. Some relationship just don't end with break up. I am lucky because I found someone like Chad who could still accept my friendship and be there for me after our failed relationship.

I don't know if I would still be lucky the next time with the man who's going to be my boyfriend though.

Napakurap ako nang makabalik sa reyalidad. Paminsan-minsan talaga lumilipad ang isip ko.

Then, just like an answered prayer, my eyes saw him.

My eyes didn't left the man who have been part of my dreams last night. He was walking down the grand staircase while massaging his head. His hair's in a mess like it's been crumpled the whole night. But he still managed to look good. Naka-blue shirt at cargo shorts lang siya. He looked so goodlooking as ever.

"Waaahhhh!!! Ang pogi ni Kuya Senechov talaga!" Halos tumili sa tabi ko si Shiela.

Pero pigil na pigil iyon. Iyong tanging ako lang ang makakarinig. Swerte lang ako at walang kasamang kurot. Minsan kasi sa sobrang gigil niya lalo na kapag nanonood siya ng kdrama, naku! Puro pasa mula sa kurot ang mapapala ng kasama niya.

That's why whenever she's watching, I am trying so much to avoid her. Aba'y mahirap na ano!

Hinintay namin siyang bumaba para sa tanghalian. He wasn't able to wake up during breakfast. Malamang sa sobrang kalasingan. Obviously, he's having a headache right now.

"Naku hijo! Halika na at bilisan mong kumain. Malamig na tuloy ang sopas na niluto ko para sa'yo." Imbita ni Manang sa kanya.

She put the soup in front of him.

I don't know if it's just me or he really looked like he's sick. Masama talaga siguro ang pakiramdam niya. His stance is radiating tense.

I bit my lower lip. I was expecting him to throw me a glance but he didn't.

Chryss, huwag masyadong umasa! Masakit kaya!

"Morning.." He mumbled to us.

To us.. hindi sa'yo, okay? Tsk.

Dumapo agad sa pagkain ang paningin niya. Maybe he's too hungry.

"Hmm.. Who brought me home last night?"

He got my full attention. He really doesn't remember anything?

Alam ko naman na may posibilidad na hindi niya maaalala ang nangyari kagabi pero hindi ko maiwasang umasa pa rin.