TCC ~ XXXVI
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Chryss
The days seemed too slow for me. During those days, I felt so lonely as ever.
Ilang araw nang panay ang pag-alis ni Senechov. Hindi na muli pang nasundan ang pag-uusap namin. He's deaf to my explanation no matter how hard I try. It's a good thing he's still going to work. Umaalis siya ng umaga at umuuwi ng mga hatinggabi o kung minsan ay hindi na. And he's always drunk.
I am so worried of him. Pati si Santhe ay napapansin na rin iyon. I'm feeling so bad more than ever. Kahit anong pag-iisip kong maaayos din ang lahat ay wala pa rin. My heart is getting heavier and kept on breaking piece by piece every hour and days that we are not talking to each other.
Alam kong iniiwasan niya ako but I can't help but get mad at him for ruining his life. Pati si Santhe ay nahihirapan na. I've been trying so hard to be okay most of the days for the kid. Lalo na't napapansin niyang may problema ako at ang ama niya. He's an observant and smart kid.
One night while I was tucking him to sleep, he asked me.
"Is he not home yet?" He was fidgeting while holding his comforter.
Nakayuko siya at tila ayaw ipakita sa akin ang malungkot na mukha. But I can hear the frustration in his tone.
"Not yet.." Sabay hinga ko ng malalim.
Parati rin akong naghihintay sa pagdating niya. Kapag naririnig ko ang tunog ng kotse niya ay lumalabas ako ng kwarto ko tinitingnan siya kung kaya pa niyang makapasok sa kanyang kwarto. If he's too drunk to walk then I'm calling Manang or others for help to bring him in.
"Why?"
"Hindi ko alam."
I really wish I could tell him everything but I don't want to make more damage than I already made.
"He's back to his old self."
Napaupo ako sa tabi niya. Ramdam ko ang pagtatampo sa kanya habang pinag-uusapan ang kanyang ama.
"I thought he was getting better, you know? When you came, he always stay."
I bit my lower lip to held myself from breaking down. It's hard to listen to him speak about his father. I feel like Santhe's forced to grow up, having no mother and his father being like this. He have his grandmother but she doesn't live here.
Sobrang saya ko nang malaman kong nanganak si Ate Ville. But imagine my horror when I found out she's already dying. That was the first time I almost want to throw things and break it. Gusto kong magwala. Sising-sisi ako sa hindi ko agad pag-uwi ng Pilipinas.
"And then he's always going home early. But what happened to both of you? I thought you're together?"
"What?" My eyed widened at the kid!
Anong ibig niyang sabihin? Napansin niya rin? I tried to reminisce if there's a time na obvious kami pero parang wala naman! But how the hell did this kid found out?
He pouted. He looked cute.
"I'm not an adult but I understand a few about it. You're both in love." Namula ang pisngi niya sa huling sinabi.
Maging ako'y namula sa sinabi niya. I can't believe this kid! He speaks like an adult!
"We.. hindi ko alam.. May hindi pagkakaintindihan kami ngayon."
I sighed. I don't know how to explain to him clearly.
"Is he mad? Why?" His eyes looked so curious.
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